I am having such a hard time
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| Tue, 12-15-2009 - 1:25pm |
I have so much going on in my life right now! I don't even know where to start. First off, I have no money left for this week. My mortgage is due tomorrow and I am short $100 dollars! Just $100 measly dollars that I can't seem to find anywhere and I'm all of a sudden going to be late and I'll have to pay that dreaded late fee of $50 dollars! I was all set to get that hundred dollars today at piano lessons but now I have a husband that's not going to be home in time and I also have a really sick child that is throwing up everywhere. So I called one of my mothers and explained that I could do the lessons if I could bring my two youngest kids and leave my sick child at home for a half hour, but even that is just me desperately grasping at straws. She told me not to worry about lessons and that she's sure everyone would understand my dilemma, but that still leaves me missing $100 dollars and I really just want to cry! I feel like I'm not able to do my job. I teach piano but a lot of the time, due to my husbands schedule, I'm just not reliable! And then I get mad at him because we really need my piano money at the moment and I feel like he's not hurrying enough or it's not important enough for him to get home on time so I can go do my job! I just want to not have to worry about this anymore! I have all these extra expenses coming up and I know that unless some miracle happens, we're not going to be able to cover everything. And they are all stupid expenses that I could probably say no to, but by saying no, it's just reiterating the fact that we're too poor to live normally!
My son got a free children's ticket to a hockey game because he was a good student (a high achiever). They are honoring all the high achievers of New Hampshire at this game and he gets a $10 dollar gift card to their gift shop, but in order to go, I have to order a 17 dollar adult ticket by this Friday.
I bought some highly discounted photo Christmas cards. 20 of them for 6 dollars with pics of my kids. Just enough to send to my close friends and family, but in order to send them I have to buy stamps.
I have the opportunity to sign my son up for a Lacrosse camp for only $25 dollars and they are going to supply the equipment for him. Only $25 dollars for him to learn about lacrosse for 8 weeks. He would love it and it's right down the street from us, but $25 dollars seems like an enormous sum right now!
See - little things like this, not huge bills or anything. Those are getting paid, but it's the little things in life I can't seem to find the money for. I knew this month would be hard for us, but I was hoping that we could do whatever it took to make as much money as possible so we could scrape by. Then last week I have to cancel 90 dollars worth of lessons because we had scarlet fever and this week I have to cancel those same 90 dollars worth of lessons because my husband won't be home in time. That's $180 dollars I've missed out of my income in the past two weeks. That right there would have paid for all of those little things I can't afford this week and my mortgage wouldn't have been late.
My husband has a check from his second job waiting for him for about $150 dollars, but the guy who writes the checks is never there when DH is and we've been waiting to get this check for 3 weeks now. I need it so bad, it's the only hope I have, but it's probably going to be too little too late for this week.
I'm just overwhelmed and I haven't been scrambling for money like this for a long time! It's got me pretty depressed today.

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You'll be OK.
Kate
Bex -
"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift -thats why its called the present."
Bex -
Well guess what, I have the stomach flu this morning. I'm lucky though because my husband has it and he's still working. Insane for him to be spreading the stomach bug all over Massachusetts but in his line of work, you work and work unless your dieing! There's no one else that can sub for him. I think the worst of it has passed and since my kids are all home, I have my 11 year old watching my 2 year old while I get to lay in bed. Not too bad! My money situation has cleared up a bit as well because my mom gave me $200 dollars out of an account she was putting money in for my kids. I told her not to, but she wouldn't listen to me. So now I can pay my mortgage on time and have a little extra to perhaps pay for my sons SSAT test if there aren't any waivers left.
Thanks for asking!
I know it must be tough with three kids and trying to hold down any type of work outside of the household.
Norma
"Patience is the best remedy for every trouble"- Plautus
Abbie. I know that feeling.
Stacey
My SIL has to pay even for the days she doesn't take my DN to daycare as she has told daycare that she would be there a certain number of days per week. She even has to pay on stat holidays when she doesn't need daycare. She also has to pay each week in advance.
(This is in-home care not a large daycare.)
Sharon
Edited 12/16/2009 5:34 pm ET by ileea
My regular daycare kid pays weekly, no matter how many days he's there.
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