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| Mon, 12-21-2009 - 9:44pm |
I am completely exhausted though! I'm sitting here eating some popcorn my mom gave me when what I really want to be doing is pigging out on the box of donuts I had to buy for my sons Christmas party tomorrow. This morning I wrapped mostly all of the CHristmas presents, cleaned the bathroom, did two loads of laundry. In the middle of it all, the fire alarm in my building went off and I was running around looking for everything I might need with a toddler just in case it was for real! It wasn't, someone was smoking in the hallway! Then, my mom came over to help me and she swept and mopped my floors for me. Then before I knew it, it was 2 o'clock and I was picking up kids from school, dropping them off at Grandma's work, going to 2 piano lessons, driving back, getting dinner on the way to my next lessons. Then I had to go to the grocery store to get some treats and a present for my kids Christmas parties tomorrow. Always last minute..that's me! Then I drove the half hour it takes to get to Grandma's house and switched carseats which is always fun, drove back and it's 9:30. I have a toddler that's about ready to melt down and 2 kids I'm yelling at to go to bed. DH is watching movies at his friends house in Worcester. He worked hard today though, I guess he fell down some stairs. I told him that he was too old to be delivering beer anymore. He's 30!
Tomorrow is looking up though because even though I have 5 piano lessons and my commute to pick up the kids will be about twice as long, I'm going to a Children's museum with a friend in the morning and I really need a break!
I'm going to go practice the piano and then try to relax before the whole things starts again tomorrow! Thanks for all the encouragement on my last post. OH, that reminds me...this weekend I got together with some good girlfriends and we were talking about whether one of the moms should stay home after her second child is born. Her husband told her it was OK. Her reply was that she didn't think she could take the 'Easy Way Out'. I literally did a double take and almost opened my big fat mouth with a "WHAT"! Easy Way Out! Does this look easy? Because in my head I'm making a huge sacrifice for my children by trying to be home for them in their early years. I'm sacrificing a lot of myself for this and it is by no means an "Easy" way out. In fact, I think it is sometimes a much harder route! You get no respect, you lose yourself, you yearn for adult interaction, but in the end, you cherish the moments you get with your kids and it is all worth it! I didn't even know what to say...so I said nothing, of course! This is the same friend that admonished me one time for complaining about having no time to cook or clean. She said "But you stay home!" Basically meaning that I should have all the time in the world to do everything with 3 kids, two in school which is it's own job! One a baby which is another job! Not to mention the fact that I still work in the evenings!
Whoo, this post got long! Sorry!

One more day and you will make it just fine!!!
You are doing great. You need to remember that you do your best and that WILL be good enough.
I have been depressed lately since being laid off. I feel like being home is my "job" now and I get very anxious and depressed about the little things around here that never bothered me before. The floors being clean (cleaner than normal) the laundry, getting dinner on the table, etc.
It's a hard burden that us mothers have. While I DO love being home I won't lie and say I don't miss the socialization I got from my adult coworkers. My husband doesn't understand that most days. I tell him my only adult interaction sometimes is a 10 minute phone call from my mom or a text from him (my DH.) Yet sometimes I think he thinks I'm ON the phone all day or living it up going grocery shopping.
Sorry - got on my own rant there.
Anyway, happy holidays to you and your family. You are doing great both as a mom and financially!!
Oh don't worry about long posts.
Well only a couple days to go!
I am one of those moms that tried to stay home with my kids. I went back to work 3 weeks after a C-Section, worked a few months, then mommy guilt set in and I
I get tired reading your posts most days. Of course you do a lot!
I still think you need to do something for yourself one night a week, even just to get out of the house. I know you work evenings but even just half an hour. I like the walking idea. Go for a walk? Do the stairs in your building. And look forward to it because that is your time!
I work a lot and do a lot with my kids(lots of homework it seems). But the truth of the matter is, I only have them 50 percent of the time. When I don't have them I am trying really hard to do things with girlfriends or walk or spend time with BF. All that cleaning will wait. I do it when I have time. Or I try to do the same things every week(bathroom and maybe one extra thing). Also I am trying to get my kids to do more. They are a bit older and want to earn money anyway. Yours will get older too. Then the older one can babysitt! Dream, it will happen! And you are so young Abby, there will be lots of time in a couple years to enjoy more. Enjoy your time with them. I know it doesn't seem like it, but it goes by fast!
Oh, and might I point out that you are NOT a SAHM!
I am a single mom (lost my husband to cancer in 2008) with a 14 month old.