Stressed out from the death of my kitty
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|Sat, 12-01-2007 - 10:04pm|
today my beloved cat Shadow died, she had been part of my life for the last 19 years. I cant seem to stop crying and to tell the truth, I just want her back! I know this isnt possible, but that is how I feel. I have spent the last two days crying, crying because she was sick and now because she died. I dont if this deep sorrow and constant crying could do anything to my pregnancy. But I am so sad, I didnt know we had so many tears in our body. Tonight will be one of first nights that I wont have to hold up the covers waiting for her to crawl under with me. This will be the first night she wont hog the bed and lay so close to me that I cant roll over. I wish that I could take back all those times I pushed her away from me, I wish I could go back and just stay up holding her all night long, had I known she would die today, I would have stayed awake petting her.
There is no kitty in the world like her. She was with me through all my bad times, all my sorrows all my good times. I dont know how many times her fur soaked up my tears as I cried cuddling her over some tradgity in my life. Can sorry hurt my unborn baby? This totally sucks!!!!!!!!