Pregnant - surprise
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|Sat, 03-13-2010 - 8:45pm|
I turned 40 this past January, and I just found out we are 6 weeks pregnant.
I have spent a lot of time on this boards about two years ago when we were trying to get pregnant with our third. Previous pregnancies were cesarean, and the second one almost took my life after I hemorrhaged. It took a lot of convincing for my husband to consider a third after that (and our second child had cancer - so fear in general held us back)... and so we got past that and tried for two years, we were able to concieve about 4 times, with all resulting in miscarriage - most very early, and the last one at about 10 weeks. IT was too much emotion, and I figured that it wasn't meant to be.
So that was two years ago, we accepted it - mostly, I mean that's part of getting older isn't it? Embracing the benefits of ...etc
But then I was having symptoms - and nasea and holy crap I'm pregnant...
I am shock denial - I really don't want to have another miscarriage because i hate them. Natural MC is so upsetting, but D & C is so clinical. And then what if it sticks??? What about childbirth, how would I do? Gosh I would love another baby we would easily fit her/him in with the love we have, but getting there - to an actual baby seems so unlikely.
Thanks fo rlistening, I guess I am just needing to talk to 'someone' because this is not news we can share at this point obviously. It can be so lonely during these days