46 & all knocked up
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|Mon, 07-19-2010 - 10:05am|
So much for chances of infertility after 40! This is my second PG in the last year. This time last year I had a March 15 2010 due date and had a MC in late August and this year I have a due date of March 15 2011. Talk about a do over. Plus my kids are 21 and 24.
Last year the PG was a surprise. I was the happiest person on the planet. I had not explored PG in 40's so had no idea there was an outcome besides a healthy baby, after all it's been 21 years since I researched anything on babies. The MC was totally devastating, and I mean totally. I started having lots of anxiety and taking some anxiety meds. I wanted that baby so bad. I had made so many plans already.
So I decided in September 2009 that I would announce I was PG again on July 15th 2010, my husbands deceased brothers birthday. On July 14th eve I bought the test and yes it was positive. (eerie sound effects play here).
So, knowing what I know now about PG after 40 I am a little messed up, feeling very knocked up with my low blood sugar and numb feet and need to eat and sleep all the time. I won't do what I did last time, buying baby clothes. I think it will be a long time into this PG before I believe it, partly because I decided the day I would find out I was PG and because of the MC and waiting to do those tests.
This will be my last PG no matter what, I won't go through this again. I leave it in the hands of the angels and hopefully my baby Noble will come to be, to me, as a perfectly healthy and beautiful baby in March of 2011.