Wish I could know that baby is safe.

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Registered: 08-03-2004
Wish I could know that baby is safe.
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Mon, 01-24-2005 - 7:38pm

I just wish that I could know that my baby is safe. I lost a little one just last month at 7 weeks, and I'm pregnant again. I'm worried though I have different feeling about this one. I worry about little things. I don't dwell on it or let it consume me, but I check for blood on the TP every time. I feel BB's to make sure they are sore. I freak every time I feel a pain or cramp or unusual feeling in my tummy. I confuse constipation pains with uterine cramps. I overanalyze every time that I don't feel sick, even if I make efforts not to get sick (like eating better and more often and taking anti-nausea prenatals). Like today I haven't felt sick. I've eaten great food though, and I haven't had an empty stomach. Yesterday I was sick as a dog all day, yet I'm freaking out that I'm not sick right now. My doc checked my HCG levels a week or so ago. They are doubling and my progesterone looks great. I've had no spotting. No pain and lots of symptoms but I still worry.I just feel so powerless and helpless and clueless. I just want everything to be okay. I want this baby so bad, but I don't want to get my hopes up. I don't want to make any plans. I don't want to count on anything because I've had my heart broken before, and I'm on edge and worried that it's going to happen again. I wish that I knew how to stop this. I wish that I could stop this. I just know that I'm not going to feel better until I pass 7 weeks with no problems (when I lost the last baby) and see a heartbeat on the ultrasound (scheduled for Feb 3rd) and then pass the first trimester. I don't want to rush things, but I just want to "know" that my baby is safe.

Thanks for letting me rant. No one will understand better than you ladies I'm sure. Sticky baby vibes to everyone.


 BabyFruit Ticker

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Registered: 05-02-2003
Tue, 01-25-2005 - 8:28am

Hi - I know exactly how you feel. I miscarried on Nov 9 04, and I was devastated. I have a healthy daughter who is 16 months old, and the most beautiful, lively child in the world, but I still do want another. Everything when so smoothly with my dd. We got pregnant on the first try a few weeks after we were married. Had no problems with the pregnancy, despite having Lupus. So, I never really imagined that anything bad would happen with any subsequent pregnancies. So, we told both sets of parents and sisters as soon as we found out. Then at 6 1/2 weeks, I miscarried. I was shocked. Alhtough I must admit that I did have fewer symptoms than with dd, so in the back of my mind, I thought something might be wrong. Now I'm 4 weeks 3 days along with this pregnancy and I'm nervous beyond belief. I can relate to everything you say you're doing - I do the exact same thing. And we agreed that we won't tell parents or anyone until after we've seen a heartbeat, which isn't scheduled until Feb 21, which seems like years away. I have some symptoms with this pregnancy - sore chest, fatigue, constipation, but no nausea yet. But that didn't really kick in until about 6 weeks with dd. So, hopefully it's on its way. I only had my hcg take twice so far. Once was about 11 dpo and it was only 18. But 3 days later, it was 156, so I guess we're okay. Progesterone was 23.

Anyway, hang in there. Do you know what the miscarriage rate is once you've seen a heartbeat on u/s? I've read conflicting reports on the internet.

Sticky baby vibes to you and I hope to share healthy baby stories with you in September.

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Tue, 01-25-2005 - 10:24am
Sending you huge hugs!

Cristy, wife to Bill and mom to Allison, Anna, Jake, Sarah, Nicholas, Joey and Lucas

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Registered: 08-03-2004
Tue, 01-25-2005 - 12:47pm

Thank you guys for all of your support. It's good to know that I'm not the only constant BB poker and TP checker.

Gooey ~ The rate drops to around under 5% after you find a heartbeat. Unfortuneately I fell into that 5% last time, but obviously most people do not. I hope and pray that everything goes well with your pregnancy and your little bean.

Cristy ~ Hugs to you. This week must be really hard for you. I'm sure that everything will go along just fine. My big week is next week. I'm nervous and already on edge. Congrats on this little one. Praying for a safe and healthy pregnancy for you and for all of us.


 BabyFruit Ticker

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Registered: 09-08-2003
Tue, 01-25-2005 - 6:50pm

I'm right there with you...I think you & I have the same due date. But I too am waiting for the 7 week milestone and I have an ultrasound on the 3rd...I know, it's too weird. Anyway, I believe you're doing fine! I know with Sam, I used to poke myself in boobs so much that I couldn't tell if they were sore from pg or because I was poking them!
Hang in there, only 10 more days til a heartbeat!

Misty

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Registered: 08-03-2004
Tue, 01-25-2005 - 11:30pm
Misty ~ Sounds like we are pretty close. I will know for sure how far along I am and when I'm due after the u/s. I'm really looking forward to seeing that heartbeat. Thanks for sharing your story. I hope that you and your bean are doing well!

 BabyFruit Ticker

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Registered: 12-17-2004
Mon, 01-31-2005 - 11:49am

Hi Summer!
Hoping that all is going well with you. It is really great to hear from you here. I can totally understand your feelings. Like so many I'm sure I check everything too. I am due 10/07/05 and worry every time that I feel gas for goodness sake! Let us know how the Dr apt goes. I hope that everything is good and here is to a hh9!

Cyndi


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