Sad news...

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Registered: 04-10-2003
Sad news...
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Wed, 03-02-2005 - 1:38pm

Well it's with a *very* broken heart that I have to post that we found no heartbeat today. I was just letting my guard down a bit so this caught me good. I'm so tired of being in this position. I really thought this little guy would hang in there for me like his/her big sister. My DD is really a true miracle to have survived in this body. Here I am at her birthday, her party is this saturday, having yet another m/c, had one last year this very same time. So now it's 7 little angels and one precious DD. How do I tell her that she won't have a little sister or brother? She didn't know about this pg of course, but asks me constantly for a sister or brother. I hate so much that she'll be an only child. I hate so much that I won't hold and nurse another baby again.

I'm scheduled for a D&C this friday and will have genetic testing done again but it's more for some closure then anything else.

I hope the very best for you all. They are truly the greatest gifts on earth. I wish more people could appreciate childbirth for the incredible gift that it is. I know you all do and I hope you all have H&H babies.

I will check back each day because I still want to know how you all are doing.

LAURA - This is going to be your time. I'm praying for you.

Take care everyone.....Karen




Edited 3/2/2005 1:43 pm ET ET by kubala
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Registered: 04-21-2004
In reply to: kubala
Wed, 03-02-2005 - 3:18pm

I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I'll keep you and your family in my prayers.

((HUGS))

Stacy

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Registered: 06-03-2004
In reply to: kubala
Wed, 03-02-2005 - 5:02pm

Oh Karen. I can't imagine what its like to go through this seven times. I am so very sorry that this is happening. Please take care, I hope you are able to find all the answers you need. Your DD is very lucky to have such a brave and strong mother.

Hug
Twyla

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Registered: 11-07-2003
In reply to: kubala
Wed, 03-02-2005 - 6:55pm
((((((Karen)))).. i saw your post earlier at work and at first by the title thought you were going to update us on someone else from the board.. i never expected to read what i did. i had to wait to reply since i was close to crying and i was at work with someone in my office (we share an office).. not a lot of privacy.. i am so devastated.. i too thought you were going to make it.. i am so sorry- i can't even write how sorry i am.. you are very sweet to think of me during this very difficult time... i hope i am lucky enough for one baby- i gave up the idea of two- now i just want one baby.. it sounds like you already know what a wonderful gift your dd is.. i know how 4 m/cs feels - i wish you did not have to go through this.. hugs, laura
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Registered: 01-13-2005
In reply to: kubala
Wed, 03-02-2005 - 7:32pm

Oh Karen,

(((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))sob, sob, (((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))
My heart is just aching now. I feel completely thrown by your news and wish it weren't true. As hard as it must have been to write your update, thank you for confiding in us at such a difficult time. Know that we are thinking of you and your family and hope to hear from you anytime you feel like posting. We still care about you very much and are always interested in knowing how you're doing.

My best,
Capri

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Registered: 08-03-2004
In reply to: kubala
Thu, 03-03-2005 - 6:16pm
I am so very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how you are feeling right now. You are in my thoughts and prayers, and I pray for a healthy baby in your very near future.

Summer and Cylee EDD 9-21-05


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Registered: 09-08-2003
In reply to: kubala
Thu, 03-03-2005 - 10:19pm

Karen,
My heart just goes out to you. Even having survived multiple losses myself, I still never know what to say to someone who has lost a little one. Just know that you're in my heart, and I'll light a candle for you.

Misty

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Registered: 12-17-2004
In reply to: kubala
Fri, 03-04-2005 - 9:28am

Karen, I am so sorry to read about your loss. My PPT are with you and your family. Sounds like you have a pretty great one. I hope that God brings you comfort over time. Again I am so sorry. Take care of yourself and thank you for all of the support you have been to me over the last couple months.

Cyndi


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Registered: 09-11-2003
In reply to: kubala
Fri, 03-04-2005 - 3:27pm


Karen, I am so sorry for what you are going through, please receive my prayers. Thank God you have a precious daughter. Are you going to be Ok on saturady at the birthday party? Maybe you can get someone to help you so you can get some rest!

KAren I really hope you recover from this pain soon, we will be here to listen to you and give you any support we can give you.

Prayers for you and your and your husband.

Maria

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Registered: 04-10-2003
In reply to: kubala
Sat, 03-05-2005 - 6:00pm


Thank You all for your kind words. My DD's party went pretty well. I'm really tired. Just sat down for the first time all day and it's nearly 6pm. Probably not the best right after a D&C but what can you do.

I know I'll get through, as I've done through all the others but I'm so deeply heartbroken, more so then I anticipated. The finality of it is overwhelming to me. I walk by my DD's old room, intended for the new baby and I just feel the pain all over again. Having to get rid of all this baby stuff we've held onto in hopes that we'd have another. It's definitely alot harder then I imagined it when we decided to try again. I know I'm so blessed to have my DD, I love her dearly. I just always imagined having two and dreamed of what it would be like, and what a great big sister she'd be. It's just so hard to let go of a dream.

I wish so much for healthy babies for you all. Grow...baby...grow vibes coming your way....>>>

Thanks again....Karen

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Registered: 09-14-2004
In reply to: kubala
Tue, 03-08-2005 - 10:20am

I just wanted to send you my sympathy. I will be praying for you and your family so that you can soon have another baby to hold and nurse and love so much. I have endured two losses and I guess I really cannot even compare that to you. YOu must be a very strong woman. May you take this time to take care of yourself and soon in the future be able to have the true blessing of having another baby. God Bless you and your family


Ashley


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