How I'm wishing for time to pass...

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How I'm wishing for time to pass...
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Mon, 05-02-2005 - 10:57am

This is such a hard time in a pg. I want to be one of those people who's thrilled without worry from the very beginning, but I wasn't that person even before the losses, so I will never get to be her now.

I'm here at 5w3d looking forward to the 1st pre-natal appointment at 7w and the 1st u/s at 8w. I want to get to that milestone where I see a hb at 8w. I just feel like I'm so much in limbo. While I know I'm pg, it doesn't seem guaranteed, so it is very frustrating.

I'm doing all the "right" things, eating well, taking vitamins, not over exerting myself. But I wish it could be guaranteed to work.

Just feeling a bit depressed. I'm still feeling like I'm wishing for a baby, but I feel like since I'm pg, I should be beyond that - a least a bit beyond it. But still, seeing obviously pg women and hearing about other pg women gives me a bit of sadness. I'm hoping that I will be there in a few months, but I'm afraid that I won't.

It's just such a weird place to be.

Carol
mommy to DA 1/19/02, DD 1/31/03, DA 12/5/04, edd 12/30/05

Carol Ravenclaw Mommy of 2
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Registered: 03-31-2004
Wed, 05-04-2005 - 3:23am

Hi Carol,

You sound a lot like me -- I felt so very negative this time around and actually told my DH that I wouldn't be pregnant at Christmas (of last year) anymore but here I am at 26 weeks! It's so hard, even more so after a loss, to be positive that everything will work out and a healthy baby will be in my arms in August. The only advice I can give is to go one day at a time and keep doing as you are -- vitamins, resting, eating well.

Even once we get pregnant, it's so very hard to quit wishing for a baby because we all have lost a certain amount of our "pregnancy innocence" but just know that there is a wonderful support system here who will get you through these rough days.

Keep us updated... your appointments will be here before you know it!







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Wed, 05-04-2005 - 10:25am

Carol,


I felt the same way, and still do somedays!