I've convinced myself (M)

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I've convinced myself (M)
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Sat, 07-16-2005 - 9:21pm

that this baby has died, just like my second one did. I barely have any symptoms (nausea about once every 10 days, gag on the toothbrush now and then, backache, occasional uterus twinge--no sore boobs at all). I'm getting closer to my personal milestone (found out at 10 weeks) and I'm so worried that the same thing will happen. Can't I just fast forward to the second week of August? Actually, I'd rather fast forward to about 20 weeks, and be able to feel this little one move around. I hate the first trimester.

I'll be so heartbroken if this little peanut doesn't make it. I've grown to love him/her already.

Sigh...
Lynn
DS 5/01
^i^ 9/03
DS 9/04
#3 (#4) 2/21/06 -- about 8 1/2 weeks

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Sat, 07-16-2005 - 10:16pm

Hi Lynn
I know exactly how you feel. I found out we lost #2 at 10 weeks and it was a huge shock becuase I had such strong symptoms still - nausea, exhaustion, peeing, bbs - but this time I am almost 6 weeks but have no symptoms except sore breasts. Normally, I get twinges of nausea leading up to m/s at 6-7 weeks but this time, nothing. I feel I could eat anything, drink coffee, exercise. I don't even feel a frequent urge to pee which is an early sign for everyone. Its really depressing but I feel so....tired.... and miserable about it.

The only hope is that my friend how had had 2 m/c before her second child had very different symptoms with each pregnancy. I am hoping that this doesn't mean the worst.

How long do you have to wait for your u/s? Mine is in 10 days time (25th July).

shannon

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Sat, 07-16-2005 - 11:19pm

Oh, Lynn, hang in there my friend. I too suffer from an appalling lack of 1st trimester symptoms. I swear this time I didn't feel pg at all until I started feeling him move - I think part of that is because I've been so busy with Sam (who just turned 15 months). But what else is going on? I've been out of the loop for a while. Have there been 'bad' symptoms, or just a lack of 'good' ones? Either way, you've got my positive thoughts headed your way. Good luck, and let me know how you're doing.

misty

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Sun, 07-17-2005 - 7:38am

I had one u/s at 6 weeks to date my pregnancy. I did see the heartbeat then, but I know that it was still early. I don't have another u/s planned until 20 weeks (or thereabouts).

Yes, my loss was a huge shock too since I still had a little bit of symptoms (my boobs were still sore, I was still hungry often, still tired, still bloated/had a small belly). They were going away but I had thought it was because I was nearing the end of the first trimester. I had a perfect pregnancy with DS#1 and didn't expect the news at all!

Because I had no warning that anything was wrong, I feel like it could happen again at any time. And I wouldn't know it again.

Thanks for listening!

Lynn

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Sun, 07-17-2005 - 8:00am

Thanks, Misty. It's just a lack of "good" symptoms. No bad symptoms at all, but I didn't have any bad ones with my missed m/c either. So it doesn't make me feel better.

I just need to get through the next week or so until I'm passed where I was when I lost my 2nd one. Plus then, I can rent a doppler and feel better that all is well and baby is fine.

Thanks again!
Lynn
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Sun, 07-17-2005 - 8:05am
Oh Lynn your post broke my heart.

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Sun, 07-17-2005 - 9:39am

(((Lynn)))


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Sun, 07-17-2005 - 4:04pm

Lynn - hang in there! I know how stressful this part of pg. is after a loss! You are having symptoms though - that is a good sign. They aren't all there every day - that's normal. Try not to worry. I had myself convinced of the same thing several times in this pg. (and even several drs. who said it was inevitable that I would m/c), I even had a big glass of wine on Christmas because I was so sad and my dr. told me there was nothing we could do at that point. Well, low and behold, here I am at 35 wks. The drs. were wrong - I was wrong. And the glass of wine probably killed any chance we had of getting a kid with a scholarship to Harvard, but oh well!

Have you talked to your dr. about maybe an u/s between now and 10-11 wks. when you'd be able to hear the heartbeat on doppler? Stress is not good for pg. mommies and they should take that into consideration when dealing with a woman who has had a loss.

Big (((((HUGS)))))!

Sue

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Sun, 07-17-2005 - 4:41pm

Oh, hon, I know how you feel and I think its normal for us. The 1st trimester is pure Hell! Mine seems like such a blur now. I convinced myself that this would end in another loss. I think I was trying to prepare myself, because my prior two m/c were such a shock. Plus, I had very little pg symptoms with this one.

Definitely, talk to your doctor. Any doc should understand and offer another u/s or doppler visit. I promise it does get easier once you pass that milestone. You don't completely get over your anxiety but you begin to enjoy being pg more.

Good luck and lean on us anytime.

Stacy
edd 09/15 after two angels

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Sun, 07-17-2005 - 11:44pm
Lynn,
I know it is hard to stay strong when so much has happened. I am thinking of you daily and we can get through this together! :) I have been struggling with my own demons, which I feel really stupid for even feeling the things that I feel and I feel guilty also when some of the things that I think about come to the surface.
Heather
EDD 2-17-06

 

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Mon, 07-18-2005 - 10:58am

(((((((((Hugs))))))))) to you Lynn.

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