spot, spot, spot...did i mention spot?

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Registered: 10-13-2003
spot, spot, spot...did i mention spot?
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Sat, 09-10-2005 - 2:57pm

DAMMIT! I'm tired, TIRED of spotting. I hate spotting. Last night, whilst in the shower, I bent over to pick up the soap and had a horrible feeling in my lower ab, like a pop or something. I don't know what happened, but shortly thereafter, I started spotting. It wasn't a lot, just a little very light pink on the TP when I wiped and it went away within two hours but still...CAN I GET THROUGH A WEEK WITHOUT SPOTTING?? Every darn week there's at least one night where I'm writing the obit for this pregnancy.

To top it off, DH doesn't want to leave Ben at Playdate, this neat little drop off daycare place near our house, so he can be there at the u/s we're having on the 20th. You know, the u/s where they tell me whether the pregnancy is viable since at the 6W one, they couldn't see a fetal pole or a h/b. He says Ben hated it when he went the first time, and he just doesn't want to do it. Well, we have no one else to watch him so this means I'm going to have to go alone, and if I get bad news, I'll just have to deal with it by myself. He said "well, they don't even tell you anything during the u/s" which is true, BUT, at 8 weeks pg, if you don't see a fetal pole or h/b, you know it's NOT good. DUHHHH...I've had enough of these to know that without having a MD have to tell me. So I got all passive aggressive and said, "Well, I probably won't even make it to the 20th anyway..." I know, shame on me, but there I am spotting, upset, worried and he just seems totally detached and unphased.

Thanks for letting me vent. The spotting has stopped, knock on wood, and I'm hoping I can keep my strength until the 20th and not cave and go to the ER. I want a peek, I want to know, I can't stand waiting another week and a half not knowing if I'm eating for one or two, LOL!

laura

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Sat, 09-10-2005 - 9:39pm

Laura,


I am praying and keeping you in my thoughts that everything will be perfect on the 20th.

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Sun, 09-11-2005 - 1:17am

Thanks Connie but can you believe I had to talk him into doing a repeat in 2 weeks, he wanted me to wait FOUR! So, he's not going to budge and let me come in early. I went so far as to look at prices for those elective u/s places. But they don't do internal u/s which is really what I need this early.

Thank you so much for your warm thoughts!!

laura

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Sun, 09-11-2005 - 7:13pm
I'm sorry this is so rough right now.

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Sun, 09-11-2005 - 7:24pm

Oh Laura, (((Hugs)))

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Sun, 09-11-2005 - 7:27pm

DS is 14 months old. The thing is, he's a mama's boy. They were very sweet to him at the daycare, it's all 20-something college girls and they loved on him, but as soon as I left, he started crying. They called DH (he had the cell phone) which threw DH into a tail spin because he was out of town. Turns out, when I went back to get him, he was fine, but they just wanted someone to know he was upset. I think he might do better this time but DH won't hear of it. So while I want DH at the u/s, he's perfectly happy not going and staying with DS, even though I suggested just dropping him off long enough to have the u/s, then he could leave and get him (would be like an hour) and come back to get me after my dr's appointment. But DH is disconnected from this pregnancy, and me really. He thinks of me as this "made of metal" woman that can handle any pain and be okay, but I'm not. I've tried to tell him that but honestly, in our daily life, I am the grounded one, the one that deals with the tough stuff.

Thanks for listening.
laura

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Sun, 09-11-2005 - 10:02pm

Your relationship to DH sounds similar to mine.

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Mon, 09-12-2005 - 10:16am
(((HUGS))) Laura! What a horrible wait! Sending you many sticky baby vibes and hugs!

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