U/S update

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U/S update
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Mon, 04-24-2006 - 12:31pm

I've pretty much avoided thinking about today because I'm still in a bit of denial and it's easier just not to think about it. This morning I finally realized how nervous I was and my stomach was just tied in knots.

So I get there early because I always allow lots of time to get 3 kids moving in and out of places. While I'm waiting, I look up at the desk to see someone who looks really familiar. Then I realize it is the same person, who did my ultrasound for my missed miscarriage in Feb at a different clinic. Sure enough, she calls me back. First thing she says is "I did your ultrasound before but it was at the East Clinic".

So first she checks from teh stomach despite my telling her I'm only six weeks and I know they can't see anything that way but she insists that she try and of course they see nothing but my full bladder. This clinic is set up different so you leave the ultrasound room and have to use the bathroom in one room and go to another room to change and then back to the original room for the ultrsound. Honestly, my shirt was as long as their gowns and there was no way I was walking through a hallway with nothing on my bottom with that gown on. SInce she said I could keep my shirt on, I just wrapped my gown around the lower half of my body and scurried back to the room.

Then she starts the internal ultrasound. First she has it on lower magnification and is measuring my ovaries. of course everytime she passed over my uterus all you can see is this black empty hole. I'm feeling progressively worse as the moments go by because that is exaclty what I saw with my missed miscarriage. Finally she zooms in and I can kinda see a spot in in there but it comes and goes based on what angle she has the probe. I can finally see something kinds flickering so I'm pretty sure that's the heart. Then she turns on the tracer to get the heartbeat and nothing happens. Tries several times but nothing comes up even though we can see the flickering. She has to call the attending doctor because she can't get a readout. My whole body was shaking by this point because I wasn't totally sure what was going on. I guess that was okay because she took some pictures and gave me a copy. Since they don't normally saw anything and I'm not scheduled to see my doctor for another 4 weeks, I asked if things looked okay. She said yes but she wasn't able to measure the heartbeat just because it was so small yet. When I got home I realized I forgot to ask how baby measures so I don't even know if it's ahead or behind.

So I did see the flickering heart so that's a good thing but honestly the whole experience was so nerve wracking that the beta counts did more to reassure me than the ultrasound did. I guess I just have to wait and believe everything is okay. I know it's so early that I should be glad I could see anything because I wasn't even sure if that would be the case. Thanks for thinking of me.

Stephanie

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In reply to: cjzimmer1
Mon, 04-24-2006 - 12:46pm

Sending you some great big hugs Stephanie!



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Mon, 04-24-2006 - 2:32pm

Hey Stephanie, YAYYY for seeing baby and it's little hb!!! I know your appt wasn't exactly perfect because of the stressful situation but the good news is that there's a baby in there and there's a hb. At my first 2 USs my RE didn't measure the baby or check the bpm of the heart...he just said that yep, there's a baby with a hb and that's all we can hope for at this point. I didn't feel discouraged only because he was smiling and optimistic and reassuring the whole time. Maybe you would've had a different experience if your tech had been a little more reassuring. I'm sure that little baby is going strong in there and wanted you to at least get a glimpse of that sweet little hb to ease your mind. :)


And honey, I'm going in for my 5th US on Friday and I'll be 14wks 1day...so you can imagine how often I've been in that dr's office! The only reason I've had so many is because I have put my pride aside and shamelessy begged (more or less) for extra scans. If you are still worried, you call that dr's office and insist on another US in a week or 2...crying usually works! LOL! :)

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Mon, 04-24-2006 - 3:57pm

Oh Steph- you're having a baby!!!

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Mon, 04-24-2006 - 10:20pm

I'm so sorry you had such a bad experience, but congrats on seeing the heartbeat! How far along are you again? I know it is really hard to see much of anything in the early weeks, so don't worry.

Hopefully you have a better experience next time...but I'm sending lots of SBVs and celebration vibes your way in the meantime. :)

Best,
Cassi

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Mon, 04-24-2006 - 10:53pm

Stephanie,


Does the printout have any measurements on it?

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