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| Tue, 04-25-2006 - 11:54am |
My first u/s is this Friday and I am starting to get the pre-u/s anxiety. Today I feel really queasy but my bbs are barely sore and I can't help but focus on the lessor symptom because my breast tenderness vanished with all my losses.
I think that Jen's experience really frightened me and made this all seem tenuous. I've also had three losses in a row and its so easy, well, LIKELY that I don't get the good news this Friday. The problem is I can't seem to remain detached. The moment I get a BFP I am completely desperately hopeful that THIS IS IT and that makes it really hard to contemplate another failed pregnancy.
Anyway, off to drop my son at preschool and then to see if I can get ready for my husband's 30th birthday on Friday - we're having all our friends over to BBQ and hang out.
Shannon




Shannon, I'm sorry this is so scary for you! I have my next US on Friday too and although it's my 5th one with this pregnancy, I'm still scared to death. I don't know if it ever gets "easy". I'm not going to sit here and say that I know exactly how you feel because I don't. I can only imagine multiplying my fear after having one mc by about 3 times after your numerous losses. But as frightening as it is, let's keep calling it just that : 3 losses. Period. No more. Little cutie pie Frost is going to have a baby brother or sister soon and you have a fantastic chance of carrying this baby to full term.
My heart goes out to you and I'm sending lots of P&PTs to you for Friday and always.
I'm sure Wendi will reply soon and tell you her Faith Over Fear saying...that helps me to listen to her! :)
Shannon,
I just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you.
I understand the emotions you are feeling. My hope for you is that you see a healthy little bean on Friday and that all your dreams come true.
Deb
I was wondering where you were!
CL - Twil
Shannon -
I am thinking of you. And hoping that your u/s is perfect on Fri. I wish there were a way to speed through this part of pregnancy. The worst anxiety for me was between week 6 and 9. Although, I still have lots of anxiety. Take it one day at time and just remember every single pregnancy is different. Stay busy and it sounds like you can occupy yourself with planning DH's party. I know that does not solve everything but just giving your head a rest is good. I cannot wait to see your wonderful update. Hang in there. You are going to make it.
Meg
Shannon,
I am so scared, too!
Hi ladies
Thanks for the reassurance - or rather the understanding. Jen, good luck. I knew you were also worried and there's really nothing to do about it until the big day. My u/s is scheduled after lunch so I have to get through most of the day before I find out. Double-uugh.
My RE said I have a 50-60% chance of this pregnancy going okay so I should just focus on the hopeful side of that rather than the risk.
I am going to head out to get some chocolate (which is one thing that does not make me ill) and some new prenatal vitamins (which probably do!)
Shannon
Shannon,
I wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you and will pray for a strong, healthy
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I hope the time flies by this week! It's hard not to hope - I read a perfect quote once that said something like, "Hope is always sitting by the door with it's bags packed, just waiting for the invitation to come along."
Just hold on to your positive thoughts as much as possible in the meantime. I was a total wreck before mine and my DH said not to worry because he just knew it would be ok. I asked him why he "knew" when I was positive it would go horribly, and he said "Because you won't let yourself feel it. You're too scared." He was right - we can't shake the past and it clouds our future judgement until we have some good experiences behind us.
We'll all be holding your hand in spirit, so deep breaths. :)
Best,
Cassi
Hugs, Shannon.