Need Reassurance

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Need Reassurance
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Thu, 06-22-2006 - 11:12am

My hubby is the best thing ever on this earth! Last night I was laying in bed and having my freak out moment, because I just do not feel pregnant and the fact that my little peanut was measuring off by 6 days this last time and everything is just piling up on me. The fear of going through a fourth loss is too much to handle and the fear that not having a heart beat anymore. I have been trying to be so strong, but at the same time I am scared to death. I want to be a mommy to my peanut so much. I have been caring the ultra sound pictures around with me everywhere and just staring at my beautiful baby! I am so in love with this little one! I always thought that once I saw a heart beat I would calm down and feel that everything was going to be fine, but I have not calmed down! I mean you would think that a heart beat of 136 would reassure me! I am very lucky that I have such a wonderful doctor’s office, because next week I am going to call and try to get in for another ultra sound. It just scares me that my symptoms are not strong! I feel like it is torture to have no strong symptoms when everyone around me tells me that “I am lucky!” Well I do not consider this lucky.


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Thu, 06-22-2006 - 1:05pm

Jenn,


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Thu, 06-22-2006 - 1:23pm

Oh Jenn I wish I could hold you right now. Remember the great words of wisdom "Faith over fear" and try to stay on top of things. It's not easy and being a PAL sucks, but do it for you and your bean. Measurements are just measurements, every u/s I get they have different dates (by a couple of days, but still). The h/b is really positive. Try to think of the things that are good, you never had a h/b so this should encourage you. As for symptoms they always hit me later at 8 weeks and even with this one it was more 9 weeks and was all over at 12. With my first pregnancy I had no symptom at all, never any nausea or anything and the pregnancy went perfect. With my 2nd pregnancy that ended in m/c at 6-7 weeks I was sick like a dog from day one, so symptoms are not a sign all is good.Maybe you could call the clinic and ask for a check now, if you feel this bad it's better to get a little reassurance.

Faith over fear and many hugs your way

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Thu, 06-22-2006 - 1:30pm
Hugs dear friend.

~Kate

Loving my September Sapphires Chase & Brynn...

 

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Thu, 06-22-2006 - 1:39pm

Hi Jenn- I sent you an email earlier but thought I'd add a quick post here too- First, I think you said in a previous email that 2/9/07 is the SAME date you got at the last appt- right? so when was the mismeasurement? From an earlier appt or from this one? Cause I would be really reassured if you've got two consistent measurements in a row.

Second, I hoped that a lot of ladies would tell you those measurements are more an art than a science anyway and to hold on to the positives.. and hope that you can take comfort in the fact that they did!

Third, I am a little farther behind you so I know we're not in the exact same boat, BUT.. I also have very few symptoms - at least not ones that I can attribute to other causes, like feeling tired and bloated and crying at sappy stuff. (Hello, that's kinda my 'steady state'!) I don't think it's bothering me THAT much yet though because with my angel I had tons of symptoms, which I remember as starting early. Headaches, nausea, throwing up, sore bbs, etc. So even though I'd like to feel "more pregnant," I don't know how much comfort it would give me until I reach my milestone anyway. So I agree w/ pp- let's try to enjoy worrying while NOT sick until we have to worry and be sick at the same time! :)

Fourth, maybe pointless to write (and personally I know it pisses me off when people tell me to relax, but that's not gonna stop me), try to relax and let Chris take care of you - it's best for everyone!

Much love
Leslie

  Leslie

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Thu, 06-22-2006 - 1:48pm

((((((HUGS)))))) I know how scary it can be, and no matter what milestones you reach, there always seems to be something to make you worry. The good news is that your doctor is telling you the truth. Once you've heard a strong heartbeat your chances of a successful pregnancy increase tremendously. Also, try not to stress too much about the dates. I know, easier said than done. But from what I have read, ultrasounds can be off by as much as 7 days in early pregnancy, and become more inaccurate as the pregnancy progresses. Even knowing that, I had a hard time not worrying when mine was a few days off. But here I am at 33wks2d and the baby is looking great. Just hang in there and don't hesitate to call your doc if you are worried about anything.

Stephanie

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Thu, 06-22-2006 - 1:59pm

I, too, wish you could look into a crystal ball and know that everything is just fine Jenn. I'm sure it is. Chris is right that you have a great chance of carrying this baby to full term! Until then, you'll be worried as heck every day just as we all are. But it's the little milestones that add up and make you feel a little better each time. Seeing the hb probably made you feel better than you did before you saw it, odds are you probably will start to feel sick (I didn't get naseaus until around week 7 and even then didn't vomit until week 10 or 11) and that will make you feel better, all your continued USs, watching your belly expand, and especially feeling your baby move inside of you! All those things will add a little reassurance you WILL start to be more comfortable being excited about your baby! It's so hard being a PAL, and that's coming from me who had 1 loss...not to mention someone who's experienced way too many times like yourself. But hey, I'm sure you saw Connie's pictures of little Orrin, right? Now that's inspiration!!!!!

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Thu, 06-22-2006 - 2:03pm
(((HUGS))) Jenn!!!
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Thu, 06-22-2006 - 2:08pm

Just wanted to send you BIG ((HUGS)).

 



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Thu, 06-22-2006 - 3:08pm

I wish I could be there to give you the biggest hug in the world sweetie.

 
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Thu, 06-22-2006 - 3:17pm

Hang in there, Jenn. It's just really hard to be pregnant after a loss. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. You'll be fine. But go ahead and prepare to freak out until your little one gets here...and then some after that even! Goes along with being PAL. Your chances of your peanut being fine are great after you see the heartbeat! Just keep remembering that! We're all thinking of you.

Tristin
Ethan 5/17/02
~angel~ 4/30/05
Grant 5/10/06

Tristin

love my boys

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