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| Wed, 09-27-2006 - 11:30am |
Hi all,
I was glad to find this board. I have been following the April board until now (I am due 4/13/07.)
In June I found out I was pregnant. I was so happy I was a newly wed married in Feb and we wanted family, it would have been my first baby. I miscarried two days after they confirmed my pregnancy. I felt horrible and was truly not sure if I wanted to try again for a while. My husband and I talked and decided that we should not wait so in August I found out I was pregnant again. A week after I found out I started spotting (sigh) I was a wreck, it was then I knew I was not over what had happened. Thankfully things went well after that I am 11.5 weeks now but I am always worried. I find myself saying "I hope the baby is OK" I find myself counting the days until my next doctors appointment and although he had been supportive I know my husband thinks I am worried over nothing. I know this is a time I am supposed to enjoy but I haven’t been able to. I have seen my baby heard its heartbeat If I where to lose it now I don’t know if I could take it. What can I do to get over this overpowering fear? I know it’s not healthy.
Cecy

First of all, congratulations on your pg Cecy!
Cecy,
Congratulations and welcome to the PAL board!
No, you are NOT cray, you are totally normal and many of us have had at least very similar reactions, myself included. I MC in Dec, Preg in Feb, spotting at 7 weeks, gush at 10 weeks, and was sure it was doomed. My husband was the cautious one and did not want to talk about "the baby" until about 12 weeks, but I could not do that. So every night I would wrap my arms around my belly, and tell the little one how much I loved him/her, and just tried to send as much loving vibes to the belly that I could. Because as long as the little one was in there, I could love and at least have some hope. My thought that I came to was that IF it did NOT work out, at least I could send the little one up with lots of love.
I know it is really really hard. I can not tell you anything to make your fears go away. Just take every day as a gift with the little one.
Counting the days will drive you crazy, and you may feel "if only i was --weeks, I could relax!!" That is OK, as long as you also savour the life in there NOW.
So congratulations, chin up, you CAN get PREG, so be happy about that, and we hope to hear lots more from you and the little one!
Lara 31 w, 1d (YAY!)