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Fri, 10-06-2006 - 3:42pm
Hi ladies,
Well I have not been posting much and I have been trying to stay away from the computer because I am always trying to "self diagnose" myslef. I do read your updates every other day or so and it always makes me happy to hear all the good updates.
I have been really struggling with this pg I must admit I am really a basket case. The Dr prescribed some medication that has been helping some it just makes me sleep. I had an appt today for all the "fun" stuff don't you love those pap's! Things are going really well. Baby looked great at first I couldn't see much and started to sweat but the nurse found the heartbeat. So far my blood pressure had been excellent better then ever really. My 24 hr urine collection came back great better than ever as well. In the past I have already been on blood pressure meds at this point. I was cleared to work which I am sure will help my depression I have been struggling with. I see the kidney Dr on the 30th and will probably see her once a trimester. Although they said be "prepared" for things to start going south right now things are going really well with my health so I see it as a very good start. I have my "NT Scan" on the 27th so that will be exciting I will be 12 weeks and almost out of the 1st trimester (YHEA).
I did have a lengthy talk with the nurese practioner today I am not sure why I don't see the peri everytime but what ever. And she suggested some counseling for me. I took her up on the offer and am kinda nervous about it as I have never talked with a counsler before. I did go to an infant loss support group after Shane passed away but I always felt worse when I left so I stopped going. I know I can get through this but I never expected to have so many emtions flooding through me. I know some of it is just pregnancy hormones but they are pretty intense. Never I have I been so paralized be fear. I so despretly want this but out of fear have contilpated not going through it. I don't have it in me ladies but unfortunatly it has passed my mind. Like I said I am totally out of control! Really not myself. My poor husband is having a hard time dealing with me as well. He is so so happy and I feel like I am ruining it for him. But still he remains supportive. Well sorry I have made this so long thanks for reading if you got this far. And I do really read your updates and I am truley happy to hear all the "Good Stuff" I just wish I ould be more supportive to you wonderful ladies. Take Care and have a wonderful weekend . I think I am going to go buy a book on "baby names" I wonder what names mean "miracle".
Thanks for listening,
Heather
9 weeks and 2 days!!
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Fri, 10-06-2006 - 4:13pm

Heather,


I am so sorry that you are having such a rough time with this pregnancy, but please know that we are all here for you and will support you when you need us the most. My thoughts will be with you.


Jenn

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Fri, 10-06-2006 - 5:47pm

I'm so sorry this has been such a struggle for you Heather.

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Fri, 10-06-2006 - 8:26pm

Heather,


I'm sorry to hear that you're having a hard time, even though it's pretty natural.

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Sat, 10-07-2006 - 12:04am

Thank You Ladies!!!!
It is so nice to have a place to come to where I feel understood. I know in time it will all be okay. It comes in waves well more like a SINAMI (sp)!! Like I said before I really hope I can extend the support. Even though I may not post I always say a prayer for those who are need. Thanks again for your kind words they mean alot!!

Heather