The further I get, the more frightened..
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|Thu, 04-22-2004 - 12:35pm|
I posted last week - I'm not sure how many of you saw it. Brief snyopsis of my story:
This will be my 11th pg. I have three beautiful daughters, 15, 7, 5,; had 6 m/c's and lost a son on 12/3/04 at 22 weeks. I have been diagnosed with APS and was on heparin injections and baby aspirin with my son. I had no intentions of being pg again. I even came to terms with the fact that we were done and moved on with my life. Now, after a little carelessness in the b/c department, here I am. I'm 6 weeks and absolutely terrified. I have a dr. appt. next week and I anticipate that they will put me on heparin injections again. But since they didn't work the last time, I'm terrified they won't work again. I can't bear the thought of... well, you know.
Anyway, I could really use some prayer and positive thoughts. I've prayed pretty much constantly and although I know it's in God's hands, it's really hard to trust. REALLY hard. I will visit here often because I know you ladies are really good at providing support. And since we've decided to keep this to ourselves, there's no one else to talk to. I will provide what support I can when I can in return. :)
Thanks for letting me vent a bit. I have each and everyone of you in my prayers. I wish you only the best of luck!!