Returning Grad due in Feb, bleeding (m)
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|Wed, 06-02-2004 - 1:28pm|
I'm not even sure that I should really be joining.... not sure if this is a keeper. There are so many similarities between this pg and my missed miscarriage, from signs like bleeding and swelling, to silly coincidences like how my doc is treating me, or where I was when I found out I was pg, etc. Anyways, I'm waiting for my first HCG result, very impatiently. It was quite the effort just to get that test done, and now I have to wait for my doc (who is out until July but checking in, I guess) to look at the results and either call me or have the nurse call. They won't tell me the results. Ok, maybe this is normal, but it is NOT normal for this doc, who took forever for me to find during my last loss. What is freaking me out (really, I don't freak all that much, but I am getting rather shakey here) is that the only time I have ever had to wait for a doc to talk to me was when another OB took THREE DAYS to call me back to tell me that there was no heartbeat with my first loss. No one would tell me anything, and now no one will tell me anything again. I am NOT liking this. Even if the news if peachy, and they allow a second HCG for the series, I'm still not happy with what is going on.
Well, I guess that is rather confusing for folks who don't know me or my history. Sorry, I guess I tend to jump in, LOL.
Anyways, as for this pg, I am due February 2nd, by ovulation date. I thought AF came on May 22nd, but my temps didn't really drop, and it was lighter than normal. Not spotting, definately a flow, and red (with brown), but not as heavy as usual. So, I tested on May 26th and got a not all that faint positive, but not exceptionally strong, either. By then I was just spotting, and spotting pretty much stopped all together by May 29th.
Basically, I have little to no hope. But last night, I felt a spark, like I really did have someone in side of me, so I feel that I should give him or her a chance, and give me a chance to enjoy him/her while I can.
Katherine (39), Natassia (4), Anthea (21 months), and Hummingbird (edd 2-2-05?)