20wks along but nervous still

Hi Ladies,

I guess I just need somewhere to get this off my chest. I don't feel like any of my friends IRL get just how nervous I am and why I haven't been myself with this pregnancy. I am 20 weeks along this weekend so 1/2 way thru. I had my BIG u/s last Thursday and the doctor told me that we are having a healthy, baby boy. I was so nervous during the u/s that I stopped him and asked how long was left because I couldn't take waiting to hear any longer. Luckily he was a kind guy who stopped, explained that all was perfect and let me watch while he did the final measurements and such before making me a DVD to bring home.

I had two early miscarriages last year (July and October) that truly knocked me for a loop. I guess the 2nd one was the one that really did me in. I was a mess and seriously depressed afterwards for about 3 months.