NT results, and leaving team green..
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|Thu, 06-17-2010 - 11:10pm|
I had a great NT screen today! Baby is growing and appears healthy. All measurements are normal. Blood tests will be back later. It was great to see the LO moving and kicking around. My EDD fluctuates every time they measure, and has possibly moved to the 18th, but he said he will keep it the same anyway. It really is a wash since I will be induced early anyway.
I had decided before today to leave team green for many reasons. The major reason was that DH and I were really hoping for a boy to round out our family. It would be so nice to have one of each, and this is probably my last. A friend mentioned to me that we would not want to be disappointed on the day of the birth, so maybe we should find out, in case it's a girl.. that way we would have time to move on, and get excited about her.
So today when the doctor asked if we wanted to know, I said yes. He said that he is 90 % sure it's a girl, and said the "parts" were parallel to the spine (like girl) and he saw a clitoris. I am glad I found out now. I feel guilty though saying that I am a bit sad that I won't ever have my boy. He did say not to tell everyone yet, but that he was pretty sure. I'm sure he didn't want to say 100 percent for legal reasons, all doctors hedge their bets.
Needless to say, DH is more upset than I am. I feel guilty though feeling a bit sad, because I am grateful that the baby appears healthy.. and that's all that should count. I especially feel guilty though when there are some people, such as on the TTCAMC board who would just be happy to have their first of any gender. Also the doctor today said he was having a long day, because unfortunately he'd had to deliver sad news to several mothers that day about their babies. I know I should be ecstatic! Please tell me it's normal to feel this way?
I do love little girls though ,and have a great name picked out for a girl, so I'm glad I will be able to use it. Now I just have to iron out the spelling of it, as there are many different versions of it. Also we have all the clothes already.
DH is going to have a harder time though.. he's been fairly silent since the results.
Thanks for listening. And really, I am so happy that the baby appears healthy.