I'm losing my mind!

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-01-2003
I'm losing my mind!
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Mon, 06-28-2004 - 1:07pm
I am becoming so frustrated with myself. About 2 months ago (May) my Fiance and I decided to have sex w/o a condom...I am on birth control pills (OTC) and he pulled out before he came. Well a few days after we had sex, I started to get constipated and randomly came across an article on iVillage which said that constipation is a sign of pregnancy while on the pill. Needless to say, this freaked me out and my period wasn't even due for another week. So I spent the week a nervous wreak! Well my period did come like normal but for some reason I still couldn't get the thought of being pregnant out of my head. So I took a pregnancy test and it was negative. I even went to the Gyno and got checked out and he said that I definately wasn't pregnant and the crampiness and other symptoms I was feeling was probably my body changing and acting differently to my pills (Although I think it's all in my head).

While this soothed my mind I still felt tense about the whole thing. So I just finished my period for this month (June) and really want to have sex again but I am so scared that my pills are going to fail or something (yes, I could use condoms too but I never had such a good sexual experience as the one time we didn't use a condom). I take my pills at the same time everyday (I even set an alarm clock so I don't forget) but how do you know that they are working? I posted something on this board about 5 months ago and I think that is where my anxiety was born. (Sorry if this is TMI) They said that while on the pill you shouldn't ovulate. Well how do you know if you are ovulating or not? I still get a discharge...does this mean I am ovulating and my pills aren't working? My Gyno said that you actually discharge more when you are on the pill. But how can you tell if your discharge is ovulation discharge or just normal discharge???

So I have had myself all tense the past month that it has thrown my whole system off (i.e. cramps, constipation, diareeha, my stomach make noises when I eat anything) and I still don't feel 100% like myself (granted I feel better now then I did 2 months ago) but I can't convince myself that my pills work. And I am getting frustrated with myself for being silly. My Gyno told me that your body can change and react differently to the pills even if you have been on them for a while. But why aren't any of these thoughts soothing my mind? All I can think about is the stories of women getting pregnant while on the pill and women who got their periods and didn't know that they were pregnant. I have friends who had pregnancy scares because they used no protection and yet as soon as they get their period they feel so much better. Why can't I feel better?

Any advice would be appriciated!

~Katie




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iVillage Member
Registered: 06-01-2003
Tue, 06-29-2004 - 12:39pm
How do you track your body temperature? Is there a special thermometer you use or just a regular one from the store?

Thanks!!!

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-15-2003
Tue, 06-29-2004 - 6:29pm
Any digital thermometer will work fine. They do sell special "basal body" digital thermometers, but I don't think these are any more sensitive than regular ones - just different packaging. They used to make special basal body mercury thermometers that were different - they had a scale that made smaller differences in temperature easier to read, but I don't think they make mercury thermometers anymore. I have a B-D basal body digital thermometer that I've used for over 4 years.
iVillage Member
Registered: 03-19-2003
Wed, 06-30-2004 - 8:17am
Actually I think the basal thermometers are more precise than the regular digital thermometers even though the readout appears to be the same when you look at the displays. I have one that I used for charting my temperature in my first three cycles on the ring (big old flat line--no variance so long as I got up at the same time every day), that made me feel a whole lot better about the ring, which is more out-of-sight than the pill.
Judie
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