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|Tue, 01-20-2009 - 10:20am|
Wren was asking for updates so I thought I'd come by and share...
Our daughter Anna is 11 weeks old now. Time has gone by so fast I can't believe it.
Anna's brother was born last year on Sept. 29th. I went into PTL at 25 weeks and out he came. He survived a week but then developed a major brain bleed so we decided to let him go to stop his suffering. My doctor advised us to wait 6 months before TTC again but we were pregnant again within 4 months.
The pregnancy was not easy... gestational diabetes, progesterone shots, 4 months of bed rest, another episode of PTL, nifedipine around the clock, multiple hospital visits and tons and tons of fear and doubt that I would have a baby to take home in the end. BUT it all worked and little Anna was born at 37.6 weeks healthy.
What got me through it? These boards, a therapist, and my husband. Just take one day at a time ladies. It is okay to be fearful. It is okay to not want to put the nursery together, to not want a baby shower. I really didn't feel like doing anything and didn't until I got to 34 weeks and my friends kinda forced me into it. I was thankful that they did, after all I didn't get to do any of that with Tyler because he was born so early. Still I didn't unpack anything or get much ready. This was a mistake BTW. Coming home with a newborn with nothing set up is not easy.
When Anna was born I couldn't believe she made it. I couldn't believe she was healthy. I couldn't believe that I was a Mom. We spent the first month looking for and expecting signs of something going wrong. I loved her but was a bit detached. Really, just now at 11 weeks I am starting to believe that things will be okay and this just might work out. I guess some would say I had a little PPD.
You will make it through ladies. Just take one day/hour/minute a time.