Need a little injection of joy today
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|Wed, 12-23-2009 - 2:05pm|
I seem to be a bit more susceptible to frustration this morning. And I haven't really had the baby blues, so I hope the three-week mark isn't an unreasonable time to shed a few tears.
I've got my dream of motherhood and feel like the family is just the right size (with such a cozy house that wasn't expected this year) but I'm stupidly hanging on to this desire to have everything under my control. I try to plan a nap when that's probably pretty unreasonable with a newborn (though in the first week it wasn't bad at all), want him to be sleeping alone easily already and wish that I'd prepared for Christmas before he was born.
There's certainly nothing wrong with letting this be my husband's time to shine. I gotta stop feeling I should have done all the shopping and got the stocking stuffers - what do you give a toddler and a newborn, anyway?! - and just relax. Take the day as it comes, nap if an opportunity arises (which it usually does) and just count my blessings! I've been way less stressed than when Tim came along, but Christmas did sneak up on me this time... It's just in the past couple days that I've cared 'cause before that, Christmas seemed far away and there was plenty of time to get all the trappings.
Okay, deep breath here. Hubby's got things under control. I should be able to do some grocery shopping tomorrow and fetch the apple pie, but I think otherwise we're good to go. Tree went up last night and is partially decorated. I can always buy a gift card if I don't have time to make the last homemade gift for my family. And there's not much to do about a newborn who wants to sleep in someone's arms rather than his cradle, so I just have to "roll with it"!