Binge eating????????
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Binge eating????????
| Sat, 11-15-2003 - 7:02pm |
This will probably sound like a huge over-reaction, but I'm frustrated with this one. As I've posted before, my appetite has been non-existant for quite a while. It started disappearing about 3 months ago, then was gone completely until about 3 weeks ago. Then, there was one day where I just couldn't get full. I literally ate all day long. Then, the next day I was back to no appetite. It wasn't like the not being hungry after a huge meal type of thing, I just had no appetite. I went on like that for another 3 weeks. Today, I'm back to stuffing my face with anything I can get my hands on. During the non-appetite "phases", I would try to force myself to eat at least one thing every day. usually a one of those microwavable soup on the go things. But, even that wasn't a daily thing. I don't know if this is something to worry about or not. The only thing I can compare it to are alcoholics who binge drink. I don't think I have an eating disorder, but then I don't know what's causing this wild fluxuation in my appetite either. Is it the depression? I just don't know. I may be over-reacting, it's just weird. With my depression before, this never happened. of course, before I didn't have the noise in my head either. If anyone has any input, I would appreciate it. Thanks.
Traci

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Thanks for your post. At least I know now that I'm not alone on this. I don't know much about "eating disorders" except that it's usually dealing with the "thought" that someone is overweight. This has been the direct opposite problem for me all my life. I've always had to struggle to maintain an "optimum" weight. With my last depression, I lost 20 pounds and it took me 3 years to gain it back. I'm the one so many people just love to hate because I can do that "eat all the time and never gain a pound" thing. What so many people don't realize is that being on that end of the spectrum is just as bad. I've put up with so much teasing over the years, I sometimes find myself wishing I had to worry about gaining too much or even losing a few pounds. I actually feel kind of guilty for even posting this. But, like I said, this is just a very weird thing for me. I'm sorry if I've offended anyone.
Peace, Love & Light,
Traci
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What do you mean, "noise in my head"? please.
As far as an eating disorder, are you concerned about anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, or strickly binge eating? Binge eaters don't purge.
You did not mention if you are currently on any meds for the depression. Meds can effect your appetite as well as your taste buds. During the times you are not eating, you might want to supplement with some of the drinks like Ensure. I know they use it in eating disorder clinics, especially with anorexic patients.
If this will help, here are some of the "triggers" of binge eating:
Particular stressful situations
Particular upsetting thoughts
Feeling guilt about something one has done
Feeling socially isolated or excluded
Worries about responsibilities, problems, or the future
Boredom
Usually binge eating is associated with over eating. However it is common (1% of the population), and especially with women dealing with depression and anxiety.
I hope this helps some....but I am really intrigued with the noise in your head.
When the "noise" started I went to the ER on the advice of a friend who works in a clinic in NY. I went back on zoloft. That was about 2 weeks ago. I had been on it before, but was "cured" (HA!) and weaned off it and have been free of it for a little over a year. Of course, my fear of being hospitalized prevented me from telling them about the "noise".
When I started putting the pieces together about a month ago I called to get back into therapy. The first available appointment that they had for me is this coming Wednesday. I utilized the emergency services department twice in the past month but have been scared to call them back because they told me that if I didn't start eating they could hospitalize me whether I wanted it or not. Right now, with everything going on in my life, that is just NOT an option. Plus I have a HUGE fear of hospitals anyway.
Anyway, even though it's only been 2 weeks, there has been no indication that the zoloft is doing anything good. It's only gotten worse. I have 3 beautiful children who I love more than life itself and they have been what's kept me from suicide. I keep telling myself that my appointment is just a few days (now) away. Last night I came terribly close to giving in to the voice. Recently, there has been an upsurge of absolute rage that I haven't felt in about 20 years. The last time I experienced this rage I attempted suicide. When I get to raging, I don't hurt others. I hurt myself. The rage has made the voice stronger. Last night it was bad. Today it's not as loud as it was yesterday. Could be cause I'm not raging.
As for the triggers you posted, I think just about every single one applies. I'm not worried about anorexia cause I don't purge. I'm just in a really dark bad place right now.
Thanks again for your input. I'm wondering now if I keep my appointment if they won't lock me up anyway. I keep hearing that I need to be totally honest when I go in there so that they can get me on the right meds. I'm scared to tell them about the voice and the suicide thoughts for fear they'll throw me in there. There's a custody issue of my kids involved here as well. That adds to my fears/anxieties. I'm just really scared and confused right now. Thanks for listening.
Traci
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I just want to urge you to be honest with your doctor and therapist about these voices... it's very important for your treatment. You can't be thrown in the hospital just for hearing things...but there are medications (e.g. antipsychotics) that are very effective at treating this problem. The doctor might even change your diagnosis, if you are diagnosed just with depression...although I have read in my psychology textbooks that there are occasionally cases of hallucinations (e.g. voices) during severe depression.
I too am struggling with eating issues...trying to avoid eating, and then ending up stuffing my face with junk food...I am so upset with the weight I've gained that I didn't even go home to visit my parents this weekend because I know they make sure I eat more than I want to. So I know how that is...but I'm not sure about why your appetite would be changing so much...definitely something to ask your doctor.
But please, I really want to emphasize that the "noise in your head" needs attention from your doctor or therapist...for your own sake, please talk to someone about it. I will be thinking of you and hoping that you choose to get the help you need.
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(((((Traci))))), what they would most likely do is ask you if you can contract for safety.
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Traci
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