In a Bad Mood

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Registered: 10-21-2003
In a Bad Mood
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Mon, 11-17-2003 - 6:00pm


I'm not doing well today. I've been on the verge of tears all day. I got my pdoc appt. mixed up, it's Wednesday not today. On my way back, I completely got lost and I don't remember how I got lost or how I found my way to the parkway! Has anyone experienced memory lapses on meds, particularly Trileptal? I swear I do NOT remember making wrong turns! lol My meds were just increased..only was on 150 mgs of Trileptal which isn't even close to a therapeutic dose and I'm in such a brain fog. My stomach is so sick, it feels like I have a bucket of rocks just sitting in my belly!

I'm just really moody and down right now and just really need a safe place where I can moan and groan and have people understand. I just feel so afraid that I am losing everything, including my sanity. I miss myself and am trying so desperately to find my way back to me again. But I haven't been "ME" in so long, I'm not quite sure who that is anymore. Make sense?

I'm so sorry I'm complaining, I feel like a whiny brat. I'm just trying to sort through sooooooooo many emotions and feelings and I get so overwhelmed with life that it makes me wonder...Will I ever really be "normal"? Will I ever be able to live the life that I see so many of my peers enjoying?

I feel like such an unstable misfit further complicated by my introvertness. I'm so torn. How do you have boundaries when one partner is extremely extroverted and the other is extremely introverted??

Thanks for listening

Christina

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Registered: 07-15-2003
Mon, 11-17-2003 - 6:14pm
(((Christina)))

I can understand not knowing when you last felt like "you".

Please don't feel like you are whining. This board is to help us all feel better, and if you don't get it all off your chest, well then that won't help at all.

Take care

Pamela

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Tue, 11-18-2003 - 1:18am

Christina, I've been there.

 

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CL-ladybug987

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Registered: 03-24-2003
Tue, 11-18-2003 - 12:09pm

Yup, I can relate to the "not knowing who I am anymore" thing. Many days I'm amazed when I actually get dinner made and the kids taken care of, ect.


OK, I haven't changed ds' diaper since he first woke up (eeewww) and I should go change him and nap with him so I can get a little rest in before I go see my pdoc this afternoon.



Ruth,


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