Struggling

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Registered: 03-28-2003
Struggling
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Mon, 11-17-2003 - 8:32pm
Ok--Saturday night I did not take enough pills and woke up with an awful headache on Sunday and felt sick all day. Today I had an appointment with my psychiatrist. He changed my meds and got things set in motion for me to go into the hospital tomorrow and begin ECT again on Friday. I told him I would be safe at home tonight.I did not tell him about Saturday night. Yes, I know it was wrong not to, but there is just nothing else he can do. I do not intend to go to the hospital tomorrow. I have been there. I have had ECT. Nothing works and I am just causing everyone a lot of trouble and expense. If anyone cares at all about me, then please hope that I succeed this time. I want it to be over before the holiday season gets into full swing. I'm too self centered to read anyone else's posts now. I wouldn't be of any help anyway. You all are wonderful. I hope someday the miracle pill is invented and you all escape this terrible depression thing. Debbie
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Registered: 12-30-2000
In reply to: flute54
Mon, 11-17-2003 - 9:07pm
Flute,

Common whats going on here you have two grown children who would be devasted if they lost you. Your name makes me smile cause it's what you like to do. Don't you dare leave us. WE need you here and your support. Please talk to me. What is this all about. Is it that no meds have helped or are you just giving up because that is not fair. Please talk to us some more and vent I want you to~~~~~~~~~~In my prayers~~~~~Amy~~~~~~~
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Registered: 04-01-2003
In reply to: flute54
Mon, 11-17-2003 - 9:25pm
I know that I'm new to this board and don't know anything about anyone here. But there is nothing in life bad enough to end your life. I know that when you hit rock bottom there seems to be no way out (im 27 years old and can't even count the # of times I tried to end it all..but so glad I never succeeded)....there is a way out...you need to reach out to someone/anyone for a hand that can help you get out of the hole that your in. I know this may be just a bunch of words that your reading, but trust me when I say this, your life will go on and you may struggle, but take it one day at a time. Like my mom told me the other day...tomorrow the sun will rise again and you will see it..it will be a brand new day. Prayers coming your way I do hope you post because life is to precious to end it all when its not your time to go. (((hugs))) angie
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Registered: 11-06-2003
In reply to: flute54
Mon, 11-17-2003 - 10:01pm
(((((((((((((((((((((((((DEBBIE))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I wish I knew what to say right now! I do know that you are loved by your children, by the ladies here on the board, and a lot of other people that I don't even know. I also know you need to hang in there. Sweetie, PLEASE call someone or go to the hospital NOW! YOU ARE IMPORTANT and YOU MATTER!!!!!!!!!! Hon, please hold on to that and get the help you need and deserve!

I wish you peace, love and light sweetheart!

Love,

Traci

~ ML ~  

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Registered: 07-15-2003
In reply to: flute54
Mon, 11-17-2003 - 11:18pm
(((Debbie)))

Please call and get help. Your family loves and need you. You are such an important person, I only wish you could see it.

I am thinking of you and sending you hugs.

Please take care

Pamela

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Registered: 05-16-2003
In reply to: flute54
Tue, 11-18-2003 - 8:38am
i just wanted to send you some cyber hugs.
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Registered: 03-24-2003
In reply to: flute54
Tue, 11-18-2003 - 11:57am
Here are some more cyber hugs.



Ruth,


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