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| Wed, 11-19-2003 - 1:53pm |
I've endured varying degrees of depression for at least ten years. It is recurrent. I'll be fine for a time, and then all hell will break loose. Usually I'm on some kind of medication to help prevent these "down times." Well, I'm currently experiencing a prolonged "down time" (going on a year), and despite the medication, I'm really struggling. To complicate matters, I don't have any health insurance and am a full-time student (read: no job).
I still see my therapist once every couple of months when I'm in town. I don't feel this is resolving anything, though. I've got myriad problems with my parents. My boyfriend doesn't think I'm "doing enough" to get over my current condition. And I'm feeling like I'd just like to throw in the towel on this whole graduate school thing and take off for parts unknown. I cannot believe that I'm thirty years old and experiencing all this same old sh** from years ago! Ten years in therapy seems to have done nothing!!
I really appreciate the opportunity to vent because, other than journaling, I really have no outlet for my feelings. I'm worried about this too as I've been experiencing profound fear (of what I'm not certain) over the last several weeks; I cannot sleep at night; and my concentration comes and goes.
I'd also appreciate any advice. Thanks for reading . . . .
J.

Hello, (((((J)))))!
I'm glad you dropped in again.
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CL-ladybug987
Hi there!
Welcome back again! This is certainly a great place to vent and I hope you will post as much as you need to..
When I read in your post that you are a student I remember something I read today in the newspaper
*hugs