I'm 19 am I Depressed?
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I'm 19 am I Depressed?
| Thu, 11-20-2003 - 12:26am |
Ok.... I dont really know what to say because I have never done this before but I will give it a shot. I think that I have been depressed for a couple of years but I have never got help. My father died in 2001 and he was my whole world I loved him more than anyone and he died from cancer. My mother and me have never really gotten along or anything like that. I have made alot of mistakes in the past couple of years I have done drugs and messed with alot of guys. I have tried to kill myself before when I was in a bad relationship with this guy. Anyways some of my family hasnt liked some of the things that I have done in the past couple of years and they always throw it back up in my face and it really upsets me. I cry alot and I sleep whenever the people I live with will let me I dont like keeping a job because I always feel so tired. And I am eating all the time even if I'm not hungry. If somebody would just write me back and give me a clue of what to do I would appreciate it.
--Erin--

Welcome to the board.
That first step, of asking for advice or information, or even telling your story here is always the hardest. You did it very well!
Trac is right, take the test. I think the answers may surprise you. Somethings that you are going through, and you don't understand why, will be answered just by taking that test. Does it make them go away? No, but understanding where they are coming from is part of the battle.
I'm sorry that you're going through a rough time right now. Keep posting here, there's a lot of support here!
Blessed Be!
Laure
Blessed Be!
Laure-co-cl on migraines & headaches
Also if you take the test and things work out they way it looks that they may...you will know you are on the right track. Finding infomation about what is wrong will help a lot too. Help you to see that you aren't alone in the things you feel. Help you see that you aren't a freak of nature for having the thoughts you do. Also info about it will help you to see that there is help and that the sun will shine through again!
Keep posting it helps to get it out and have feed back from people who can relate or at least empathize. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!!
Hugz
Dru
I am terribly sorry to hear of the loss of your father.
I think you have already gotten some great advice. I know medications might seem really scary, but they truly do help. Finding someone you can talk to, like a therapist etc, can really help. That, too, can be a scary, unsure feeling at first. But it helps to get things off your chest.
Please take care. I am sending you ((((hugs)))).
Pamela
Sweetie, I'm sorry that you are going through such a rough time right now. The advice you've receive here is very helpful. Keep posting here. It does help. The people here are a wonderful group and want to help. Hang in there hon.
Foggy T
(((((Erin))))), I'm glad you found our message board and I hope you will come back to post some more or just to "lurk".
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Big hugs to you and welcome to the board, I am sorry to hear aout your dad I know losing someone that you love so much is a hard thing to deal with and I agree with Trac that maybe you havent or were not able to deal with the whole thing and grieve the way you wanted to.
Second the test is also a good thing that is how I found my way to the board and that was almost a year ago and I have been here since so stay a while post often vent or laugh tell us the good bad and ugly that is why we are here.
Third you family should not throw past mistakes in your face they are in the past done over with people tend to do those types of things to make others feel worse than they already feel, kinda like kicking someone when they are down.
I know where you are coming from with the past mistakes I too have done alot of messed up things sleeping around drugs drinking ect you name it I probably did it and I still make those mistakes but I fight hard to stay away from the drugs but the sex thing that is harder than I thought it would be but I am working on it and trying.
For years growing up I was a wreck fighting with my mom my sister anyone and everyone in my family who came across me knew I had a bad attitude no one knew I was screaming for help, I had an aunt tell me that she was gonna lock me up in the loony bin and never let me get out I told her I would kill her first I never would have actually done it but still I said it and I am not a big person 5'2 105 lbs any one can kick my rear end.
I would try to contact a therapist talk things out see what they saw maybe meds would help.
Try to get to someone who you can talk to trust who can help you help yourself.
Good luck sweety. keep posting
take care,
Erin