CL-Tracarts

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Registered: 11-18-2003
CL-Tracarts
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Sun, 11-23-2003 - 2:04am
(((Trac)))

Thank you for the websites. I'm printing them out. I read them but, right now it's like reading greek. I'll ask the funeral home on Monday when I go in if they have a checklist. I've got to go and start packing up dad's stuff tomorrow. The guilt right now is starting to eat at me. I was having coffee with friends after a meeting this morning right across the street from him. He had asked me yesterday if I would swing by and take his phone to Radio Shack to have the battery checked. I told him I would. If I hadn't gone with my friends, maybe I would have been there.

Argh! I KNOW that this is not productive thinking. Despite my efforts, I end up there anyway.

Then, I have things for me that I need to figure out. My first group session is scheduled for Monday night. As long as I've waited for this, I'm not sure if I should go or be home with my kids/mother. I can't even decide if I should go to work on Monday.

My head is swimming and something "new" pops in quicker than I can keep up with. Overwhelmed, numb. I know that this is all part of the process, but God it hurts! Let me know your thoughts. I will definitely be here. I'm not even going to kid myself into thinking sleep would come tonight. Thank you so much for being here.

Foggy

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Registered: 04-07-2003
Sun, 11-23-2003 - 3:39am

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I am thinking of you and praying for you and your family.

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Registered: 11-18-2003
Sun, 11-23-2003 - 4:40am
(((Trac))) Thank you for all of your words. They were very helpful. I think I will try to lay down for a little while. My mind is numb and my body aches. It feels like someone just ripped away a huge part of me. I've lost my grandparents and friends over the years. But the intensity of what I'm feeling right now is nothing that I've ever felt before. I'm going to take all your hugs and Caly's pocket hugs and try to shut down for a little while. Thank you so much for your support. I really do appreciate it. It gives me comfort.

Foggy

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Registered: 09-12-2003
Sun, 11-23-2003 - 8:40am
Foggy;

I'm sorry that I wasn't up this morning when you posted, normally I am at that hour!

Let me say how sorry I am that you're going through such a rough time right now. Trac's thought's were sooo wonderful though!! I hope that you were able to get some rest, if not sleep!

Remember, to take care of you right now. It's tough to sleep, eat, drink plenty of water, etc~I'm sounding like a mother hen aren't I? You're right, I think each of us has been at the place your visiting right now in your life. There are what feels like hundreds of "details" that need to be tended to. Your seeing others grief, anger, frustration and want to "make things ok" for all of them. But, when it's all over, and everyone has gone home, having taken time now to think of the blessings, and good times your father gave you will be the strength that you need personally, to get through this.

I can only re-iterate what Trac said! Take time for yourself. If there is no one there to lean on, then lean here hon!! Our shoulders are open for business!!

I am sending you positive thoughts, prayers and asking your angels to surround you!!

Blessed Be!!

Laure

Blessed Be!

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