giving up or bowing down......

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Registered: 11-18-2003
giving up or bowing down......
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Tue, 11-25-2003 - 4:15pm


I have decided to take a bow at this time

The reson I am doing this s I am far worse off than I thought I was the crying throughout the day at work home being ignored by my family, I cant get ahold of my son no one to talk to face to face it is ll too much at thsi smoment, I cant even give good support to the people on this board to those have supported me even when they were going through a bad time and I cant even return the favor how horrible I am.

I want to call my therapist but I am afraid I see her tomorrow but I dont want to show or tell her what if she wants me to go to the hospital I have been there once already I cant go back I wont go back I wont servive there.

Thanks giving is on thursday I dont want to go to my moms house I want to be alone christmas is coming up I cant afford any gifts I cant stop crying my arm is bleeding so bad I cut across my wrists just to see what would happen didnt hurt WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?????????????????????????

I was doing so good for so long I was laughing smiling enjoying my life what happened to me why am I going thru this again.

I have no more strength I have no more fight

I give up I really give up this time

Thannk you ladies for all of your support and for being there for me when no one else was

this board has a bunch of extrodinary women on it

keep up the good work

I love you all.

Erin

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Registered: 06-23-2003
Tue, 11-25-2003 - 4:28pm
Erin,

I'm sorry I really have no advice to give you, but I wanted you to know that I believe in you. Please don't ever say that you deserve bad things, no-one does, especially someone who's gone through so much.

I really wish I could give you a hug right now and show you that you're not alone in this struggle.

Please, please don't give up. I know you think that no-one cares, but I care even though I hae never met you.

Luv n hugz

shannon

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Registered: 07-15-2003
Tue, 11-25-2003 - 4:30pm
((((((Erin))))))

PLEASE, call the hospital. Call the 1-800 number. If I was in the US, I would call you sweetie.

Please talk to me. You can email me directly at serenitycouragewisdom@hotmail.com.

Erin, you are an extraordinary person. I think the only person who doesn't know it is you. YOu are crying out for help by writing this message, and that is great. You DO NOT want to die. Think of your son.

I know you aren't getting along with your sister right nw, what about your parents or a good friend? These are all people who, if they know how bad you are doing, will help you. You just have to let all your inhibitions go and just tell them that YOU NEED HELP.

Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help.

Please take care ((((((((((((((((((((Erin))))))))))))))))))))

Pamela

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Registered: 11-18-2003
Tue, 11-25-2003 - 4:56pm
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((ERIN))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Sweetie, PLEASE listen to the ladies here. We ALL care about you! You are a wonderful person who both needs and DESERVES help to feel better. Sweetie, you know I'm here if you need to talk. I will do whatever I can to help you. Hang in there honey! Please make the call to get yourself the help that you need to get better. YOU ARE WORTH THAT! You know how to get in touch with me, DON'T hesitate!

Peace, Love & Light,

Foggy

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Registered: 02-05-2003
Tue, 11-25-2003 - 5:19pm
Sweetie...

I know we've been through this a THOUSAND times, but I still love you. You are a fabulous person that deserves the best. I mean it. I believe, and I'm sure that your family will agree, that holidays are about being with family. It has nothing to do with gifts or money. It's about sharing time together. I know money is tight for everyone in my family right now, and we all decided not to give gifts, but to promise to hang out an extra day together. So, maybe that could be an agreement with your family??

I know that things are terrible for you right now, but please promise to hang in there for all of us, as well as yourself. You deserve nothing but the very best, and don't ever sell yourself short. I lov eyou lots!


Trix