DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY-TRIGGS

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Registered: 05-12-2003
DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY-TRIGGS
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Sat, 11-29-2003 - 11:32am
I am putting my plans to commit suicide into action. I told my gram last night that I had written my goodbye letters and got my date of my death. I am so frustrated by everything that is going on and I don't feel that I have the right to waste space on a board that has other people that need it more then me and are more worthy then I am. I am suppose to be going to the circus tomorrow with my 5 year old great niece Lexxy and my mom and niece Tammy who is mother of Lexxy. I am going but I just don't care to. I don't get out of bed, I don't shower, I don't do my hair I don't do anything. I don't do anything because I am nothing. I even carved Hate Me into my thigh to remind myself how little I am worth. I am very sorry to everyone here. You all have been wonderful and have supported me in my worst of times and I just don't think it is fair that I take up space. I am truly sorry if I let any one down but I just can't see me going on this way and I can't see it getting better. I can't even get into to see my Pysch doc without having to go through my therapist. She won't be back until December 1st and she made an appointment with me for December 5th and by the time she gets me an appt with him it might be a couple more weeks, supposedly the therapist is suppose to act like the liason between us but I should be seeing him every three months and instead I go almost 8 months between visits.I don't feel any hope. I told gram I go through the motions. I watch a funny movie I laugh but I don't feel anything.Well, I am sorry I have taken up so much space I meant to be short and not to ramble. I haven't looked at my last post but if no one responded I understand why. Just a burden. Andrea

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Sat, 11-29-2003 - 12:33pm

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Registered: 03-28-2003
Sat, 11-29-2003 - 12:49pm
(((Andrea))) Go to the emergency room and tell them how you are feeling. Now! Debbie
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Registered: 11-18-2003
Sat, 11-29-2003 - 1:00pm

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Sweetie, YOU are deserving and worth sooooo much!!!!!!

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Registered: 04-23-2003
Sat, 11-29-2003 - 1:30pm
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