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What now?
| Sun, 11-30-2003 - 1:06am |
So now what? My friend Lisa is gone, and I feel so lost. I wasn't missing my ex because I had Lisa here to hang out with. But it was around this time last year when we (my ex and I) had gotten back together. I am really missing him.
There is nothing here for me, but I moved back because I was miserable where I was. I just want to go live off in a cabin in the woods. Away from outside stresses, away from people who only seem to hurt me (even Lisa, although she didn't mean to hurt me and I know she left and it is best for her). I want to be happy, to like myself. I knew I need to stop looking for happiness in other people, and I have to find it in myself.
I wouldn't mind moving somewhere, but I can't afford to pick up and leave. I have an awesome paying job here. But I have no friends here. I miss being young and not having bills and being carefree. I miss my horse, I miss going for all day rides and relaxing.
I feel so lost...
Pamela

I know how it feels when you feel you're not where you belong..Just wanted to let you know that you're not alone..*hugs*
Jenn
((((((((((((((((((((((((PAMELA)))))))))))))))))))))))
Sweetie, I wish I could reach through this machine and give you a huge real hug!
I know that it's the cliche that you have to find happiness in yourself. I agree that no person can make you happy. But I do think that having a life with friends that you enjoy and connect with adds a lot of happiness to your life.
It has taken me years to finally make just a few friends like that. But a few is all we need, right? Have you considered taking classes doing things that you love to do? I have met lots of people at classes. First I took a belly dancing class. That was tons of fun and I met women of all ages and walks of life. It was just a bunch of women having fun together. You could take classes in art, writing, improv (which is VERY fun), self-defense, almost anything.
After school is over, it's hard to meet friends. I specifically prayed to have certain kinds of friends come into my life. I don't know if you are the praying kind, but I'm amazed at how prayers like tht come true. After I prayed for that I had a small circle of wonderful women in friends in just a couple of months.
It's hard to start a new life in a new place. It takes time. I've only been in San Diego for a little over 3 years. I've only just gotten friends that I feel I really connect with. I didn't have friends like this in the last three places that I've lived. It takes a little time to feel rooted in a place. I can see now that my biggest problem in other places is that I didn't take classes in things I like to find people I related to.
Take Care,
MariaC
Awww (((((((((Pamela)))))))))))))
I know it hard to take those first steps to find something like a new friend or something to do..
What about this? Are there any local farms or stables in your area? What about heading over and just hanging out as a start? I know having worked with Horses for years that an extra hand is usually always welcome even just as a hot walker or grooming. Who knows where it may lead?
*hugs
*hugs
Pamela;
I'm so sorry that you're going through this rough time right now.
Blessed Be!
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