Back in town...
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| Mon, 12-01-2003 - 12:42am |
And of course seeing my sister and (secretly) reading some of her old poems triggered strong feelings of inferiority in me...I wish I could express myself better, but even more so, I wish I didn't often feel like my mind is completely empty, devoid of any complex thought. I think being around the lake helped a lot to soften the blow, though...I have always wanted to live on a lake since I was a child...the water and nature comfort me somehow...
So now I think I'm back to my more "normal" state of low energy and some depression... isn't it sad that this state feels much more comfortable to me than the hyper, anxious feelings I was having before? I hope that doesn't mean I WANT to be depressed...because I don't...but those feelings were so new and strange to me that it was frightening.
I'm pretty sleepy now, but I will try to catch up on reading some posts tomorrow...I'm not even really sure how I'm doing at the moment...another 2-hour drive back to my own apartment today...so I'm feeling pretty numb and tired.
Hope you all are making it through all right,
Rose

Glad to hear that you made it back safely. I understand the comfort that nature brings. I was raised on a farm and to this day I feel lost because I live in town.
I just wanted to send you some ((hugs)) and say hi.
Take care
Pamela
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