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Has this happened to n-e one else?
| Mon, 12-01-2003 - 8:09pm |
im sry if this is stupid and pointless but here goes....... i have been diagnosed with alot of @#%$ and been hospitalized for suicide attempts and i am a cutter or atleast i was for a year but i havent in almost a month. i met this guy and well he was single then he had a g/f for a couple weeks then ended up breaking up with her for me but i dont know why. he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. he cares soo much and he shouldnt, i dont deserve him to. im a disgusting excuse for a person and i shouldnt be living. i have been on alot of meds and they have helped put me in a "better place" however i still feel the hurt and pain. i was intoxicated last night and revealed all the pain of my past to my boyfriend and i cried and cried and he has never seen me cry and well really no one has. we have been together for about a month and in only that amount of time he reacted to my behavior and feelings in ways only someone can wish. he hugged me and wiped my tears and told me that this didnt change anything and he would still love me and be there for me. i dont kno what to do i told him to break up with me but he was reluctant. hes such a good person and he doesnt deserve to have to deal with me. all i want to do is cut because im so angry with myself for being so stupid. i know he had a right to know but i didnt plan on it being like that. anyways this is stupid and long i just didnt know what to do. sry i bothered whoever reads this..... lyl xoxo Love Always............

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So while he was visiting I woke him up at 3 am one night because I was in so much emotional pain. I curled up next to him and started telling him about all of the struggles I was in and how hard it was. I talked and cried as he held me for at least an hour, maybe two. It was so amazing!
Months later we started going out. We got serious fast because we'd been close friends for so long. He's loved me through this whole rotten illness. I made progress after going on medication, then feel backwards after having a bad car wreck, then got better, then fell back, then went to therapy again and make a major recovery. He has been by my side throughout this. Now I am happier than I've ever been and we are happy together. I feel so in love with him for all that he has loved me through these past seven years.
The first year I just tried to break up with him all the time. I constantly sabotaged the relationship. But he wouldn't let me go. He is the first person who ever made me feel loved. It is amazing. He couldn't make me happy. I had to do the work for that. But I'm so glad that he didn't give up on me. I think he's my angel sent from God. Like your boyfriend is with you, he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He's seen me through suicidal times and long-term depression. He loved me through it all. It was hard at times. At one point I thought we were through, but we did recover.
So, the answer is yes. I have had it happen. It can happen. There are caring people out there who will truly love you through anything. It is an amazing thing. I'm glad that you found such a wonderful man.
All My Best,
MariaC
he sounds like a great person and proof that u do matter. obviously he thinks that u r worth his time and affection. it's silly to try and convince him otherwise. this is not to say that i didn't do the same with my bf. but i guess it is easier to judge when u r on the outside. i feel so incredibly lucky that my bf has the patience it takes to deal with me at times. he has had problems with depression before, so he knows just how i feel. on the other hand, i don't want to bring him down. i will never forgive myself if he relapses because he is around me all the time. but in the end, i am so happy that there is someone who knows this side of me and loves me none the less. try focusing on that instead. u told ur bf and he didn't run away, didn't pass up on getting to know u for something easier.
Anya
Take care
Pamela