I WANT A WHOLE NEW LIFE

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Registered: 12-01-2003
I WANT A WHOLE NEW LIFE
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Tue, 12-02-2003 - 1:49pm


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Hello to you all, sorry for my english (wich is not so good).First of all this year has been pretty hard for me to handle (this without telling you that my last 3 to 4 years have been a disaster),when I say a disaster I mean that everything EVERYTHING that I do turns wrong. I have make many financial mistakes. I have felt in love a few times in these years and in a short time period (a few months) be left with nothing but loneliness. I'm a 33 year old girl who has 3 brothers who are very cold and don't like to share time with me. This is my only family in P.R since my mom left to Boston a few months ago (wich hasn't help a bit) she has been my only support. In these years I have been suffering from one depression to another, I have also been hospitalize and I'm under treatment for bipolar disease at this moment an take 5 diferent medications a day. . At this moment although my last relationship ended a month ago and I got very depressed I went to Boston to visit my mother and almost all my family that lives there. And although I have though about this before but have been negative about the idea, now I think is the time to make a change in my life . I know the change has to come from inside, but I need a new LIFE. So I decided I'm moving to Boston. I know this will not be easy. I have to learn more english than what I know, but at least I know something. I'm doing this because I have try to live a satisfied life but all I do is work, clean, buy groceries. Because of my depressions I have lost my friends I live a miserable life wich has turn DOWN my sel-esteem and I have had many bad toughs in my loneliness wich is not good. I want to start a new life, work all my issues little by little this is the only thing that is giving me a motivation at this moment, Anything else doesn't motivate me. I only want to be in my apartment I have also isolated myself from society . I'm like kind of scare since I have been betrayed by many people.

I hope my bachelor degree and my experience at work help me found a job at Boston. And I can really start a new life. I will like to know your opinion on my desicion. Hope to hear from you people soon!



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Registered: 07-15-2003
Tue, 12-02-2003 - 3:19pm
Welcome to the board!

I think you should do whatever you think is best for you. It sounds like the only supportive people in your life already live in Boston, so I say go for it!

BTW, I think your English is just fine.

Take care

Pamela

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Tue, 12-02-2003 - 4:07pm

I agree with Pamela hun,,


sounds like you have thought this threw and sometimes you just have to take that leap of faith and go for it!


Hope it all works out for you!!

*hugs

*hugs             

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Registered: 12-04-2003
Thu, 12-04-2003 - 9:33am
Hey sweetie! Hopefully everything will go well for a brand new life. Don't give up hope, remember that spring will always come after winter. Have you ever thought about maybe trying something spiritual to help with your emotions? Sometimes being spiritually revived may help you. If you're interested, email me at chillil7977@yahoo.com. Hope to hear from you!

Lillian