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| Tue, 12-02-2003 - 2:06pm |
I am new here, and haven't posted hardly at all. Mainly because I am kinda embarrased by my behavior, and I don't know technically whats wrong with me.
Let me explain. I am a 22 year old female, I live with my mom(my dad comitted suicide almost 5 years ago) and my younger sister and brother. I graduated College last October, and now I owe almost $16,000 in loans, plus credit cards...
Lately, I have been really moody, I can't think straight, I hate my job, I hate going home, becuase mom might be there with her new boyfriend(who, I like , since I did set them up) but I hate being around them, and I don't know why.
I am so bouncy, one minute I am happy, one minute I am really angry and crying, and yelling at my sister, and mom.
The only time I am really happy is when I am with my boyfriend. Last night, I couldn't stop crying, and it was for no reason.
I get really angry over nothing, like if someone drinks my last beer in the fridge, I cry. Or yell.
The other day, I had a particularly bad day at work, I got home, and said to my mom that I think I should go see a shrink, and she told me that, she wanted to mention that to me, but she was scared I would get mad at her.
That told me right there that there is something wrong with me. I have cried at work, becuase of my boss, I have cried when my boyfriend doesn't call me back, or if my sister is snippy with me.
My family is crazy dysfuntional... My brother used to get violent with me, and I always just freaked out on them and started screaming, then crying...
My aunt told me she thinks it could be depression. I don't know... All I know is that I need help. I hate being like this. Please help!
Heather


Well, fellow Canadian, sounds like depression to me. Have you done research on depression? I have found that the more I know about this montser (depression) the better I am able to handle it. Kind of like knowing what you are up against sorta thing.
Alot of us here are on meds and they really do help. I also see a therapist, which if you get referred from your doctor shouldn't cost you anything. (We are so lucky, when I hear what some of the amazing American ladies have to go through to get help it is terrible.)
There is a kind of depression called Bi-Polar. That means that you are really up and then are really down. You might want to look into that.
Anyway, I hope to get to know you better.
Take care
Pamela
Heather!
Welcome to the board and its OK sweetie!
You may be experiencing depression right now but I promise you can fight this and win!
*hugs
welcome. i'm new here too and it is only recently that i could finally admit that i have depression, so i have an idea of how u might feel right about now. seeing a family doctor is definitely a good idea. he (or she) might not be a specialist, but can still recognise the symptoms and maybe prescribe something to help u deal until u r ready to go for professional help. (in my case 3 months). he might even suggest a therapist. so good luck and let us know what happens. the thing i love best about this place is that it seems like someone is always ready to listen :)
Anya
I really appreciate the support and I'm going to go see my doctor as soon as I can, and see if I can get some help.
Hugs
Heather