what are these feelings about????

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Registered: 09-01-2003
what are these feelings about????
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Tue, 12-02-2003 - 10:06pm
Hi out there...I really don't know if how I'm feeling is depression or not, in fact, I feel as though I don't know much of anything lately. I wrote down some words today that described what was going on in my head...failure, worthless, lot, tired, lethargic, bored, lack of concentration, forgetful, indecisive, lose interest quickly, can't commit to anything...it could go on and on. My beautiful, amazing, year old daughter seems to be the only reason I even get out of bed. I recently decided not to go back to work after my maternity leave, to stay home and raise my daughter. I don't miss work per se, but I feel so unstimulated, so..pointless. I've tried "starting my own business" with one of the direct selling companies, and after spending a huge amount of money on that, I've lost interest in it after only 2 months. I feel like a huge failure, I get excited about something (usually a career change) and then after a lot of money spent and a very short period of time, I lose interest. I can't seem to concentrate on anything, when my daughter goes down for her nap, I just wander around the house, starting things like folding laundry, and then walking away from them after 3 minutes. I feel I'm wasting this life, and I don't like feeling this way, but I don't know how to change it. These feelings have been building up for a couple of months at least, but have only recently come crashing in on me. I felt just fine after the birth of my daughter, with the exception of the usual "first baby" confusion and doubts about my abilities. But recently, I can't seem to pull myself out of this fog.

Thanks to anyone who reads this and any response would be greatly appreciated. My husband listens to me when I talk about this, but as much as I think he tries, he really doesn't understand how I feel.

Lisa

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Registered: 07-15-2003
Tue, 12-02-2003 - 10:23pm
(((Lisa)))

Welcome to the board.

It definately sounds like depression to me. You say your daughter is one? I don't know how long after pregnancy post partum depression sounds, but you might want to look into it.

You can also find alot of information about depression on the internet. I have found that the more I know about my depression, the more easily I can handle it.

Meds and therapy are also options to look into and think about.

Take care

Pamela

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