Still Down

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Registered: 03-28-2003
Still Down
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Wed, 12-03-2003 - 10:37pm
Hi everyone. Just kind of checking in. I doubt anyone cares. I have been of no help to anone on the board for so very long. I just want to vent for a minute or two.

Today was the 5th ECT.Not even halfway thru yet. No change yet. I saw my therapist Monday and my doctor today. The hospital doctor had talked to my doctor and told him that I try very hard to be cheerful---but that he sees right thru it. DARN! Oh well, at least I'm trying.

Anyway,my doctor says he would feel better if I were in the hospital still, but he said he will not make me go back unless he feels I can't control the 'feelings'.

I guess that's all. I'm tired and going back to bed now.

Debbie
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Registered: 03-27-2003
In reply to: flute54
Wed, 12-03-2003 - 11:11pm
Debbie,

I'm so glad to hear from you, and yes, I do really care, as I know many others on this board do. I'm sorry to hear you're not feeling much better from the ECT...maybe with time, you will begin to improve.

As frustrating as it may be, I'm glad your doctor can "see through" your happy face...he needs to know how you're truly feeling in order to treat you properly.

Please, if you do start feeling like you can't control yourself, do call your doctor or head back into the hospital...I know it's not a great place to be, but we all want you to be safe and (eventually, hopefully) happy.

Rose

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Registered: 04-09-2003
In reply to: flute54
Thu, 12-04-2003 - 1:53am
I don't really know that much about ECT, except that it can have really beneficial effects. Sometimes it doesn't work, and sometimes it take awhile to work. I'm glad that you are trying everything you can to get better. I think that's the path to healing. I was desperate and trying everything I could, as well. Medication helped some for awhile. Then Cognitive Behavioral Therapy helped. That took 6 months until I really started using the techniques my therapist taught me on my own. Then exercise made me feel even better.

It takes work for me to steer myself away from the negative thoughts every day. I spent my life ruminating and thinking about the pain I had been in. I tried Gestalt therapy to release the pain. I tried rebirthing. I tried hypnosis. I made some progress, but it was my thinking patterns that kept me coming back to depression. When someone went wrong, I went to the worst place. That was a normal, short trip for me ... to lose all hope over every disappointment and start thinking it was all hopeless again.

CBT helped me to stop myself when I start down that path. I actively stop my mind like I'd stop a small child who was running into oncoming traffic, or stop my dog from stealing food from my plate. I mentally say, "NO! I'm not going there. I'm not doing to entertain that victim, low self-esteem consciousness right now." It helps me every day. I don't always succeed, but it helps me a lot.

I'm sending prayers and positive thoughts to you for your ECT.

All My Best,

MariaC

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Registered: 07-15-2003
In reply to: flute54
Thu, 12-04-2003 - 9:03am
Yay for Debbie!

That is how excited I am to hear from you. I think about you alot and I wonder how you are doing.

I am sorry that things aren't going the best for you. I want so much for you to have some light at the end of the tunnel.

Take care.

Pamela

Ps: We all love to hear from you. And don't worry about not replying to posts if you feel you can't. We have all been there and we understand. Just keep us posted, we care alot about you sweetie.

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Registered: 07-18-2007
In reply to: flute54
Thu, 12-04-2003 - 10:39am

((((((((((((Debbie)))))))))))), it is so good to hear from you again.

 

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Registered: 11-18-2003
In reply to: flute54
Thu, 12-04-2003 - 10:47am

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((DEBBIE))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))


Sweetie, I'm soooooooo glad to hear from you!