Tired of it all

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Registered: 07-15-2003
Tired of it all
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Thu, 12-04-2003 - 6:00pm
I am so tired of living life this way ladies.

I have been so tired and grouchy these past few weeks. It's getting to be more than I can handle. I have always been a tired person for as long as I can remember. This can't be normal. There has GOT to be something that can fix this. I have been to a sleep clinic, I have had my blood tested and tested to no avail.

I am tired of feeling as if I can't express my emotion for fear of being laughed at. I am tired of having to pretend that I am okay when I AM NOT. I am tired of being sad and lonely. I am sick of having no friends and no social life. I am sick of hating myself, of having no confidence. I am sick of being this fat and ugly person that I am.

I just want to go live in the bush with all the wild animals where I can be myself and where I won't have to deal with the worst thing on earth: people.

Pamela

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Registered: 04-09-2003
Thu, 12-04-2003 - 9:03pm
Gosh Pamela, I have felt the same way so many times! People can be so frustrating! I've gone crazy about this for years at a time.

I have been hurt by many people I have loved and given a lot to. I thought it was about me. Maybe it was at times. It was about them, too.

I think that most people are pretty shallow, judgmental, and self-centered.

It has been quite a road for me to find some true friends. Even they frustrate me at times, but they also accept me warts and all, which no friends have ever done before.

I feel like my life has been a process of weeding out all of the negative, hurtful people. Sometimes I've pulled all of the weeds and there was no one left. I'd start over, then end up weeding everyone out again, or getting weeded out myself.

I keep trying to find the people, activities, and things that I enjoy, and weed out the rest. I'm thankful for the few people in my life who care. It has taken so long to find them. None of my immediate family falls into that category.

I understand your frustration. I used to want to go live on a desert island. I still wish there weren't taxes ans so many bills that make life such a struggle.

Anyway, I recommend moving the toxic people out and putting yourself in new situations like classes, where you can meet more people. It's weeding, weeding, weeding.

I think the people on this board are awesome. So that's a start!

Love,

MariaC

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Registered: 03-28-2003
Thu, 12-04-2003 - 9:24pm
(((Pamela))) I know exactly what you mean. I wish I could help. Know that I will be thinking of you and hoping things get better soon! Debbie
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Registered: 07-18-2007
Thu, 12-04-2003 - 11:28pm

(((((Pamela))))), you might want to do some reading about chronic fatigue syndrome and see if anything fits.


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CL-ladybug987

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Registered: 03-30-2003
Thu, 12-04-2003 - 11:49pm
i have to tell you- lots of people- even those without depression sometimes want to avoid other people. because honestly, people sometimes suck. :) as for the tiredness- i was having the same problem and here are some suggestions: first- take nice bubble baths with candles and soothing music at night to rejuvenate and sleep better. eat some chocolate- caffeine and seratonin helper- unbeatable combo. get to a tanning booth- yes, they're bad for your skin blah blah but i think the light is similar to those light lamps and makes you feel like you are in the sunny summer instead of this dreary weather. don't worry, it will get better!
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Registered: 05-22-2003
Thu, 12-04-2003 - 11:52pm
My situation was similar to yours. Please take a look at the posting How I got to be Happy. I can say that I am truly happy now.
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Registered: 09-12-2003
Fri, 12-05-2003 - 6:47am

(((((((((Pamela))))))))))


I'm right there with you girl!!!

Blessed Be!

Laure-co-cl on migraines & headaches

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Registered: 12-02-2003
Fri, 12-05-2003 - 8:53pm
Hi. Hope you are doing ok today. Sorry yesterday was so crappy for you. You were the first person to reply to my very first message so I wanted to check in on you. The weather is really nasty here. Very windy, rainy, blah. Yesterday was interesting for me. I actually went out of the house & drove. Haven't done that in a long time. It was the people on this board that gave me the support & encouragement that enabled me to do that. I "pretended" everything was ok too. For 9 or 10 years. It was one of the worst things I could do. When I started telling people everything, they were in shock. They didn't believe me, they thought I was crazy or going through a phase. Because I used to keep it all in,I smiled a lot when I was miserable, told everyone everything was ok when they asked. I grew up knowing everyone had their own problems, so why burden them with mine. But it's the people that believed me (not many), the people that care. When you tell people your real problems, that's when you can weed people who don't really care out.

Take care of yourself.