feeling like a loser

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Registered: 03-30-2003
feeling like a loser
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Fri, 12-05-2003 - 12:05am
i have been trying to get a job and not getting any responses. i am quitting modeling at least with my one agency because i don't think i am getting sent for any good jobs and my agent is not working for me- good move for me but makes me feel a bit ugly and like a failure. i have not even called my acting agency this week because my self confidence is so low and i just can't be what i should be to go in there- happy, motivated, self-confident. i told my boyfriend that while he was on vacation i would get a job and he is coming back saturday and i haven't. it's not him- although the fact that he has a wonderful job that he works really hard at and i am an out of work ex-model makes me feel like i must seem like a loser to him even if he doesn;t say it. it's more that i gave myself a deadline and now that i am there i am seeing myself feeling like i have no purpose and soon will run out of money. i don't set my alarm in the morning because i have no where to be. today i am still wearing the tank top i wore to bed and even though i cleaned and did laundry i feel like i am doing nothing with my life. i am feeling depression and my ocd creep back up, and breaking a mirror this week certainly isn't helping! i just needed someone to tell me that i am not a loser, and when i tried to ask my mom for some encouragement, i got the impression that she didn't think i was doing very well. i do still have my own apartment in the city that i am paying for. i just feel like there is nothing to show for my life right now. when people ask me what i did this week, what is there to say "well, sat around in my pjs and watched tv. i did leave the house to go grocery shopping." yeah, that sounds like a life.
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Fri, 12-05-2003 - 12:33am

Hmmm....well today was my day off and I sat around watching tv and napping, in my pajamas! And I *have* a job. So that does not make someone a loser. But if you feel bad about yourself, just keep looking for something..*hugs*


Jenn









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Registered: 11-18-2003
Fri, 12-05-2003 - 7:01am

(((((((Sweetie))))))) not being happy with your job does NOT make you a loser, or a failure!!!!!

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Registered: 07-15-2003
Fri, 12-05-2003 - 10:19am
You are not a loser sweetie!

Keep looking for a job that will make you happy. You deserve it.

Pamela

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Registered: 10-02-2003
Fri, 12-05-2003 - 11:54am
((((((HUGS)))))) you are not a loser! Some people chnge jobs several times in thier lives, either because they they are not happy in that job or because of being laid off or fired. That doesn't make them a loser or you. It is life and you are special and I am sure very beautiful(being in modeling). My daughter is so beautiful but she doesn't see how beautiful she is. I took her to a modeling school and they loved her. She is 14 and 5'8 thin and a beautiful face. Unfortunately we couldn't pursue it because of financial reasons. You are a beautiful person inside too. How do I know this, well, you are on here reaching out for help and care about taking care of yourself. Take this time to think about things you would like to do, what your good at and would enjoy having for a job. Take this time to be good to YOU and do some soul searching. Don't beat yourself up. I know that is hard not to do. I think alot of us on here have that problem, but try not to beat up on yourself. I wish you all the best and keep posting and let us know how you are doing.

Tina