What's the worst part?

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What's the worst part?
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Sat, 12-06-2003 - 8:40am
All, I would like some insight into this thing called depression. It makes me feel less alone to ask questions like this, so bear with me.

I have been thinking about this illness we deal with. I have been in many studies and it is good in that I am contributing to the data about how to fix us and it is bad in that it often open wounds.

Things associated with depression:

Fatigue

Hopelessness

Sadness

Worthlessness

Lack of appetite

Becoming less social

Sighing, yawning

Unable to fulfil daily activities

Memory issues

Motivational problems

Apathetic-ness

Loss of sex drive

Lethargy

Crying

Feelings life is not worth living

Getting easily aggitated

Restlessness

Too much sleep

Too little sleep

Wow, no wonder diagnosis is hard. (My apologies for poor spelling too)(Maybe that is the depression...nope...just a poor speller...lol)

So here is my question. If you have read this far.

What is the worst part for you?

I am not fond of being a member of the "who needs a shower? " club.

I hate that I used to be an up person, who was positive all the time and now....

I hate that I used to always get the little things done..

I hate that I have to force myself to eat every darn morsel of food that I take in...

But this is me...I will post my worst part in a seperate post.

What is the worst part for you?

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Fri, 12-12-2003 - 9:43pm
((((Michelle)))))

it makes perfect sense. my boyfriend has been so patient with me, espicially the past couple of days, when my medication just seems to have stoped working and i'm at my worst. i'm so glad he loves me enough to put up with me, but i feel incredibly guilty that he has to.

but still not is not the worst part. inertia...definetely a good adjective. then, if i actually make it out of my house, my emotions r still completely out of wack. i'm irritated by everything and just want to cry at really odd moments. and that discourages me from leaving the house in the first place. not being able to sleep, eat, or enjoy sex are just details in comparison to these three.

~Anya

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Sat, 12-13-2003 - 8:38am
Laure, thanks for your reply. I think that lack of movement is a big thorn for many of us. I too used to be high energy and up-beat, but now with the depression I can seem to get anything done.

I have even taken to using paper plates, because I could not get the dishes done. I cleaned all my plates and they are collecting dust until I can summons the energy to use them..lol

I guess we do what we can.

Symptoms, it is an amazing list, and I left a few things out too, by accident. No wonder it is so hard to treat this illness.

Thanks for your thought provoking answer!

Sending hugs and good thoughts your way.

Take care,

Lisa-)

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Sat, 12-13-2003 - 2:48pm
(((((Jaime)))))You are so right, anything can trigger those feelings. And those are scary feelings that go hand in hand, worthlessness that is interacting with lack of motivation. Or perhaps the lack of motivation creates the worthlessness. So many of you smart ladies have pointed out that there is no one thing, but a few that interact. And those few can be triggered by a flower commercial or a soap opera.

Thank you so much for you answer.

Sending hugs and good thoughts your way.

Take care,

Lisa-)

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Registered: 12-13-2003
Sat, 12-13-2003 - 8:45pm
The worst part for me is the feelings of gulit. I feel like my husband and little boy shouldn't have to go through this. They haven't did anything to deserve this.

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Sun, 12-14-2003 - 10:04pm
((((((Rose))))The battle to find "me", is something I deal with too. This horrible illness does take away who you know you could be. It also makes us second guess ourselves: I often say to myself :" is this the depression talking?"

What a smart answer!

Yes, your second place...the dark stuff that rumages and makes us consider bad stuff is really "worst" as well.

Thanks for your answer!

Sending hugs and good thoughts your way.

Take care,

Lisa-)

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