happy monday (yeah right) question??

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Registered: 11-18-2003
happy monday (yeah right) question??
Mon, 12-08-2003 - 3:05pm


Hello Ladies.....

I hope that you all had a good weekend...and for those of us who got the snow storm I hope that you did not shovel to hard or try to venture out in the white stuff and those of you who had to venture out I hope you all got home safe and sound.

I know that a few of you had asked if my pdoc and tdoc know about the diet pill intake yes they do they dont like it but cant change it.

I stopped taking the diet pills about 2-3 weeks ago but old habits die so hard and I am now back on the diet pills my old friends I guess I missed them too much to leave them behind.

I am eating however normally so basically it is like once a day or so I eat when I am hungry so I am not starving myself.

I have not cut since friday which is good I have not had the urge I have however been fighting back tears at some points durring the day but thats not a big thing for me I am used to it.

I have been thinking about my life what I want from it where I want to be ect....

I want to go back to school and get a degree and actually do something good with my life, I also am thinking about moving back to arizona I have always thought about it but I have such a huge fear of moving back there I am afraid of my ex what he would think I sometimes feel that Jakob doesnt need me in his life as a constant, I then think well what if I dont make it out there what if I fail I cant leave my son again like I said pure fear, that keeps me from doing alot of things.

So anyways just wanted to say hello and to see if anyone has any insight onto getting over and beyond fear that is my big topic for today fear...

Am I being dumb for having such a fear as moving to be with my son I dont know maybe I am crazy for having this thing in my gut that is so paralyzing.

Well I gotta run let me know what you all do to over come your fears?

thanks