hes gone...help(trig)

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Registered: 08-17-2003
hes gone...help(trig)
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Mon, 12-08-2003 - 7:26pm
Hi ladies,sure you dont remember me & Im not sure this is even where I should be..I feel so far beyond depression.I dont know what to do.I know what I want to do...I have been fighting it all day.If anyone remembers at all,I said how I had fallen for a man I met online...and once I gave him a pic he backed off and crushed me.well,then all the sudden he was all into me again even had us get cams so we could see each other when we talked,then he started calling me 2 and 3 times every day...and we would spend hours on line working on things together...had plans for him coming to spend a week and just days ago I felt something was wrong and asked if he was still coming he said yes.Then today he emails me...Im not even worth a call.He was sweet as could be."I met someone""your still important friend to me"..you all probably think Im crazy I fell in love with this guy but every night for allmost a year we would talk and say goodnight toeach other...and now with a warning other than my intuition he is out of my life.And I dont know how to deal with it I cant deal with it...I think Im done,I cant pull anthing out of this..I cant breath,I cant stop crying,,,I dont know why Im here,talking..I just dont know what to do...how to live with out him.I shouldnt have let anyone in,I adored him,I thought he cared about me Im such a fool.....Im sorry I dont know why Im here....I so want this life over
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Registered: 03-30-2003
Mon, 12-08-2003 - 8:02pm
i remember you and the situation! i am so sorry that you are so sad right now. remember that it WILL feel better. as much as it doesn't feel like you can live without this guy right now, you will not feel like that forever. there was a guy that i dated who made me realize what love really was- i thought i was going to marry him. i was so crazy about him and then when i was having a bout with depresssion and was already low, he dumped me. it was the worst. my roomate called my mom and told her she thought i was trying to kill myself- that thought was definitly in my mind for months. i thought there was no one else i would ever find- that he was all i wanted and i didn't know how to breathe or get out of bed without him. you know what? i got through it and it made me a stronger person. and in the end, he actually tried to come back to me and i had realized in the time apart that i didn't want him anymore. i never thought that would happen! you never know how things will turn out, but take care of yourself and you will be fine! feel better.