not sure what my issue is????

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Registered: 12-09-2003
not sure what my issue is????
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Tue, 12-09-2003 - 12:12pm
am I depressed or feeling sorry for myself? I feel like I am being pulled in differnet directions at all times. I am confused on what to do half the time and i am always 2nd guessing myself on any decision i make. I feel run down and run over on a daily basis. I feel used and then at the same time unwanted. Everyone wants something from me but never give anything back in return. I can not keep up with the standards my husband feels I should be up to with cooking and cleaning etc.... I work full time and have two kids. I try my best but my best is never good enough. i have no support from friends or people i thought were my friends my spouse only thinks im complaining. i truley think my spouse thinks of me when he needs something other then that I am a pest and he does not have time for me. I hate my life i dread wakeing up daily to the same ole crap. nothing changes. i am very very tired of everything and have gotten to the point of not careing anymore. I have talked myself into believeing this is what i am going to have to do for the rest of my life. And to do this without completely going over the edge i do it senseless i feel nothing i care about nothing i get up do my job come home do the chores go to bed and start over again. I have become the biggest bitch in the world no one wants to talk to me. I am short with everyone includeing my kids. I can not help it. i know its not there fault but i can not control my attitude. What is my problem and can something like prozac or paxil help me?

Thanks

DG

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Lilypie 6th to 18th Ticker

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Registered: 04-07-2003
Tue, 12-09-2003 - 5:28pm

Welcome to the board.

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Registered: 12-06-2003
Tue, 12-09-2003 - 8:15pm
Yes I do believe that you may be depressed,You should probably have a visit with your family doctor and tell him how you feel. He may give you an anti-depressent or refer you for therapy. As far as the other concern you mentioned about " nothing ever seems to change,it's the same old grind and how you imagine it will be this way your whole life.

Don't worry about that. Nothing stays the same everthing is in a constant state of change and motion. For example your children are growing as they grow they become involved in diffrent things, therefore your involved in diffrent things, someday they wiil marry and have children of there own and your whole life will be diffrent. Everything is always changing.
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Registered: 11-16-2003
Tue, 12-09-2003 - 9:21pm
I can completely understand your plight, and yes it does sound like you may be sufferring from depression. But do believe that there are people out there that do understand and care about what you are going through. I have the same feelings as you and find it hard to keep going on with the same old duties day after day. It can come to the point where you find yourself feeling obsolete. I am a stay-at-home mom of three kids, 5-3-1, and my husband is a police officer. He's always working and I'm always home. We recently moved to a new city and have no family here. It's really rough for me and dealing with depression makes it all the harder. The first step is to make an appointment with your doctor and tell him/her what is troubling you. I know that it is hard to do...to be able to let your guard down and put aside your pride and open up to someone the things that are so troublesome, but it will make for a better recovery in the end. Depending on what your doctor recommends I'm sure that it will help you. Plus, you will have unconditional support here. I hope that things will work out for you and that you will have better days.

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Stay positive,

Jaime