Will I ever feel normal (depressing)

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Registered: 05-01-2003
Will I ever feel normal (depressing)
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Wed, 12-10-2003 - 11:11pm
I am so confused about everything that is going on right now. My family is breaking up (not including my dh and the kids) and I am so torn on what to think about all of this. I went through a death of someone I cared for and some problems at work. I am on Wellbutrin 2x daily and I thought it was working but right now I am not so sure. I don't feel "depressed" but I just want to cry all the time. My eyes are so sore from crying and I just want to tell my parents that I am done with them. Is this wrong? Is this something that is normal to someone who is going through this? Should I ask the Doctor for a different med of more? The only thing that is keeping me this sain is my two children. I wouldn't commit suicide because my father attempted it and I know how devistating it is to those involved. But I am starting to wonder if my kids would be better off without me to bring them down. Would it be easier if they grew up not knowing what it was like to have a mother who needs medication to feel happy? Sorry, I know this is just going on, but I needed to tell it to people who would understand.
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Registered: 11-18-2003
Wed, 12-10-2003 - 11:20pm

((((((((((SWEETIE))))))))))))


Hugs to you Sleepingbeuty.

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Registered: 04-07-2003
Thu, 12-11-2003 - 12:52am

Welcome to the board.

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Registered: 09-05-2003
Thu, 12-11-2003 - 10:01am
NO, your kids are NOT better off without you! I have a friend who's mother committed suicide when she was in college...she and her brother have been in and out of mental hospitals ever since for depression--I think this is something they will never get over. Your kids need you and don't care if you need medication -- millions of people need medication. Just remember that you're going through a hard time and it's normal to be reacting this way...YOU WILL FEEL BETTER. If it makes you feel better now, definitely go to your doctor but please don't hurt yourself.

Hugs.
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Registered: 11-18-2003
Thu, 12-11-2003 - 1:54pm


First off your kids would not be better not knowing hteir mother so get that thought out of your head.

Second I have been there where I felt so strongly that my son would be better off without me in his life that I would just make it worse for him being on meds up and down all over the place but then I thought about it and realized that it would hurt more to just leave him then to have him see me improving myself taking meds has saved me and yes it sucks taking pills everyday but in the long run it is well worth it my son will be able to see that his mom overcame a disease and is better for it and your kids will see the same thing in you.

I know what it is like to not want your family to be done with them that is how I feel now but I hope that in time it will pass, and I hope that it will pass for you too.

talk to your doctor see what he/she says about the meds more meds different meds try whatever you have to but at least try.

Good luck sweetie. post here vent here do it often alot however much you need to do it we will all be here to listen and give support.

Erin