I am so ticked off I could scream-trig

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Registered: 09-12-2003
I am so ticked off I could scream-trig
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Sat, 12-13-2003 - 8:06am
I'm sorry if this is hard to read, my computer is having a breakdown this am, and won't let me into any of my "tools".

Last night, my-well let's just say the person that it says on my marriage cert that I am married to-came home from work with a major attitude!! He proceeds to tell my son-Josh the one who was recently told that he's bipolar-that "things are gonna change around here. You are going to stop dressing like a 'punk', and your mom is going to stop 'letting' you run the streets, or I'm out of here. I won't stand for it anymore! I am not going to be a part of this whole mess, no matter what the drs say!"

Well, at that moment, the mama lion came out, and I let loose! I told him, that he needed to go back out the door, and leave his attitude outside. That I had told him before NEVER to threaten me with his leaving, because I would help him pack! During this whole tirade, my poor son is sitting there thinking that it will be "his" fault if his dad leaves! I have never wanted to rip someone's head off soooooo badly! My son is at a very delicate time right now. Yes, he's having problems. Yes, I wish that he was NOT depressed, anyone in even their "almost" right mind would want that!!! I am still shaking from this!

I cannot believe that this pigheaded, pain in the ***, is going to attempt to threaten me! He thinks because he "makes the $$" that he can control everyone! Well, this time, he stepped over a line, and I will not let him destroy my son. If I shred the marriage cert does that nullify it? Naw, didn't think so. He has soooo much coming to him in the next life!!! He got up this am like nothing was wrong. He even tried to joke around with my son right after he went off!! You know, there are all of these innocent children in Detroit, near where I live, that end up the victims of drive by shootings, and not one of them could hit him! I am LIVID!!!!

I'm done. There is no more love, concern or care in my heart for this man. I know that I have my own "issues" and don't make the best wife or mother. I can accept that. I try to do the best with what I have, inside and out. I just hope that he can live with his decision! I am going to work, I don't know, 10x harder to get up and just live, and deal with my kids, like I know they need to be dealt with! UUUUGGGGHHHH! If I could just get my hands around his neck, I'd strangle him!!

What gives this man the right to destroy anyone that he "says" he loves?! I cannot understand it! I am going to spend today, going through the inventory for my biz, and get more things out online for auctions. Then, I have to contact an atty, even though it's Saturday, I know of 2 that I trust, and would call me back.

Sorry for the rage, ranting and raving here!! I'm praying that my depression doesn't put up a road block in this plan I have. I'm going to take it moment by moment today. Only way that I will be able to make it through! Unfortunately, his stupid boss gave him today off. So, I have to put up with him today. I plan to make it well known how I feel and why. He wants out? There's the door. Don't let it hit you in the *** on the way out!!

Thanks for listening/reading!!

Blessed Be!


Laure-co-cl on migraines & headaches


Blessed Be!

Laure-co-cl on migraines & headaches

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Sat, 12-13-2003 - 9:26am

Laure!


I can totally relate to your post because I have gone thru the same thing with my DH... I use to cry and beg when he threatened to leave me because

*hugs