weird thoughts confusion maybe

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Registered: 11-18-2003
weird thoughts confusion maybe
Mon, 12-15-2003 - 6:53pm


I have been having some odd thoughts recently actually this past weekend is when they started..

Let me give you some quick background info..

My dad left when I was about a year got remarried had two more lids lived in arizona he is still there reson why I went out there in the first place to meet him didnt like what I saw and stopped speaking to him for about a year he saw my son once and that was it so it has been 5 years since I spoke to him my sister hasnt seen or spoken to him in about 10 years he is a big huge a-hole

So anyways I started to think about him this past weekend and I can not remember him ever visiting me when I was younger at all he did visit there are pictures to prove it but I remember nothing he came out in 1990 to connecticut for my sister high school graduation but I do not remember it we went to florida shortly after that my mom and him tried to get back together but thankfully it didnt work out but I do not remember him being there.

I want to understand why I do not remember him at all is there something that my brain is making me forget about or is it because I just do not care at all about him no emotion at all if he died I wouldnt be fazed by it (I am sorry for those that are close with their dad or recently lossed their dads,but my case is much different)

I want to try hipnosis to see what it sould be I need this question answered or it will haunt me forever.

thanks for the ramble.

Erin