Holiday Stress!!! *Pulls Hair Out*

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Registered: 04-18-2003
Holiday Stress!!! *Pulls Hair Out*
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Tue, 12-16-2003 - 12:33pm
Okee dokee. Here we go. Christmas usually stresses me out b/c of all the losses in my family and I can't help but think and feel the emotions of the past. And knowing that many of those will never happen again leaves me feeling so sad. Christmas and New Years are usually a time period of me constantly PMSing. I cry at songs and commercials that bring back the past. Argh. Plus, my trip up to Ohio is on my mind. I'm so excited to see my mother again and my friends for Chirstmas...but I promised to help my sister and bro-in-law out with money...and they seem to be thinking that they can borrow as much as they want so long as they pay me back. I'm a softy and pretty much a pushover, but I've put my foot down and I'm already feeling the wrath of my sister and her guilt trips. My entire Christmas bonus is going to this trip, as well as $$ out of my inheritance account, and my final paycheck. Plus the b/f told me he talked to his attorney yesterday and he needs to give him $100 to get a charge taken off or he could go to jail for a little while. When he's sad...I'm sad, so I do what I can to help...then I later feel as though I'm being used a bit, subconciously of course, b/c I am financially stable and he's...well, not. I have all these back up plans for just in case...but goodness. I'm just really over-stressed in so many ways. I have been looking for apartments I could afford on my own, and part of me wishes I had the nerves to just go get my own place. But that would mean having to tell my loving b/f that he has to go stay with mommy and daddy for a while until he gets his "poop in a pile" (as my mom would say). It could end our relationship just by me bringing it up...and I know, I know. If it would end it, is it worth it to begin with? I'm just not sure anymore. I'm sick of being a pushover
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Registered: 10-29-2003
Tue, 12-16-2003 - 1:13pm

"If it would end it, is it worth it to begin with? "


No, it's not.

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Tue, 12-16-2003 - 4:31pm

Dusty is right hun,,

*hugs