Completely Numb of everything but pain..
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Completely Numb of everything but pain..
| Fri, 12-19-2003 - 12:50pm |
I just wanted to thank you all for your inputs. Thank you for the wonderful support and advice. I think I will call the police station for an al-anon number. I've been wanting to go for a long time b/c my dad was also an alcoholic. Today, I'm more numb than I think I've been since my dad died. I tear up so easily, my body shakes and I forget how to breath. I'm glad I didn't file the injunction. I think he just hit rock bottom. I hadn't heard from him in a while, but he emailed me. He apologized and told me how embarrassed he is and how ashamed, and how much he hates himself. He only wants to be friends, which is what I want for right now, too...he sees how much he needs help and admitted to me that its going to be hard, but he's in the best place he can be right now to get help. It gave me hope. I'm still emotional, but at least now I know how much he really wants help and that he's willing to do what it takes to be that great man again. I'm just glad I have clearity on the situation..a bit, at least. Should I still wait to talk to him? I don't know if there's a "rule" or anything...like dating :) Hey...I chuckled. Yay. *sigh*...its going to be okay. I believe in God more than I have in a long time. I luv ya', ladies. You are definately a wonderful bunch, each and every one of you. Sending all my love and hugz **Sarah**

I'm sending prayers prayers and positive thoughts your way.
Love,
MariaC