Holidays,depression,health

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Registered: 04-15-2003
Holidays,depression,health
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Mon, 12-22-2003 - 1:07pm
Hi everyone, sorry I haven't been around. It seems as soon as things start going ok something is bound to come down and hit ya on the head. I recently was diagnosed with a possible pvns in my right hip. I had surgery two years ago to remove it (a nodule) from my left knee. Now I have one in my rt ankle and rt knee (both of which I have been ignoring) but when the pain in my groin, hip and back got so that I could not move, I knew I had to go to the doc. So, he thinks it is pvns in my rt hip too. I have to go for an mri Christmas Eve. The only way to cure it is through surgery. The complications are that I could need a total hip replacement (it erodes the bone) and I am only 45! The pain has been awful, but it is getting better after 4 weeks. I just don't know how much more of this crap I can take! My pdoc says it is out of my control so not to worry about it. But I can't help it. If I have to have surgery that means time off work. This place has been so good to me giving me every wednesday off for 3 months. I am about to go back full time after the first, and now this. I don't know how they will react. Again pdoc says out of my control don't worry. Easier said than done. I feel like everytime I turn around it is something else, physically or mentally. I am exhausted and just want to feel ok physically and mentally, just one day!!! Sorry, I know all of us are struggeling this time of year. It scares me how I will react without Michael this year. But sometimes I think maybe God is giving me something else to worry about so not to think of Michael. But depression is depression, no matter what the cause. Oh well, enough wining. I hope you all (we all) get through this tough time of year without too many scars. I wish you all the peace and happiness you deserve. Thanks again for being here.

Happy Holidays

Peg
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Registered: 07-18-2007
Tue, 12-23-2003 - 12:38pm

(((((((Peg)))))), I am so sorry to hear you are having more physical problems.

 

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CL-ladybug987

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Registered: 04-15-2003
Tue, 12-23-2003 - 12:49pm
Thanks Barb, PVNS is pigmented villonodular synovitis, it affects 1.8 people per million, they dont know why it happens. It is a tumor in the joint that grows like a pearl in an oyster. Can be quite painfull, but the worst is it can erode the bone. As for Michael, i did not break up with him, he tried to kill himself in march and then actually did it in august. I had my first dream of him last night, and woke up thinking he was still alive. I cant shake that feeling. I know i have to live my life, but this time of year is hard, we spent it together last year, and it was wonderful. thanks for the support

Peg
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Registered: 07-18-2007
Tue, 12-23-2003 - 6:15pm

Peg, I'm really sorry about getting confused and mixing you up with someone else.

 

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CL-ladybug987

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Registered: 04-15-2003
Wed, 12-24-2003 - 2:13pm
Hey Barb, no problem It is hard to keep track of all of us here, and sometimes we think everyone knows all our history. PVNS is not cancer, Thank God! Rarely it can be, but I dont think this is. YEs, my Dr knows all about it, what little there is. My preauth did not go thru in time for the mri today, so it was pushed back to next wed, but my apt with another doc (same group) is not until 1/8 so I have time. I will let you know how things turn out and thanks for the kind thoughts. HOpe your holiday is good

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays

Peg