JUST WANT TO UPDATE! MAYBE TRIGGS AND IT

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JUST WANT TO UPDATE! MAYBE TRIGGS AND IT
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Fri, 12-26-2003 - 5:27pm
could be a little long.Well, I survived Christmas ladies. I was going to be on my own this week due to conflict in Kara's schedule. Well, it turms out that I did get to see her as she called me Tuesday and said that she could see me Wednesday at 10 A.M. as she had a cancellation. I went and saw her although I didn't feel like going because I was sick. I got the cold that is going around and the Risperdal makes my nose stuffed up and so I was feeling doubly miserable.I saw her and then Irv and I went and visited with Tracey for about a half hour. I used to work with Tracey in the nursing home that I got fired from two years ago because of my depression after working there for a year and a half.She told me that day that her and another co-worker were talking and Tracey was telling her about the time we were wrestling in the snow and how I got Cheryl down in the snow who was the administrative assistant and how I made work fun. The co-worker Betty said that even though I suffered with major depression that I always cared about and took good care of my residents. Such a shame my boss got ignorant and let me go because she knew about my depression and also knew that besides Tracy I was the most dependable one there. I would do double shifts because other co-workers would not call and not show up. It was horrible.Then after leaving Tracey we went to my mom's. We were there around 1:30 and everyone was coming at 5. I took some sinus medicine but I was still miserable so I went up and took a nap until 4:30. I came down feeling a little better. Deb got to mom's first(sister for those who don't know) then came Tammy with Lexxy(niece and great niece) then came Bill with Billy(brother-in-law and oldest nephew) and last came Ryan(youngest nephew)I love everyone but Bill my brother-in-law. I can't stand him and neither can most members of the family we just put up with him but don't like him. My sister has left him twice. They have been married for 25 years. I wrote a little thing to my family since I couldn't afford to buy gifts this year and I read it before dinner. It wasn't a sit down formal it was like dinner every night at mom's but still. The boys were playing cards and gambling before dinner. Dad had everyone gather in the living rooom so I could read my thing and Bill was still going to try and play cards while I was reading my thing. He is so ignorant it makes me mad. I mean give me 5 mins it doesn't hurt to give me 5 min. Dad yelled everyone pay attention Andrea has something she wants to share with the family. Then the jerk paid attention. My mom and Deb had tears in their eyes when I finished and my dad said it was just beautiful and wants a copy of it. I have no self esteem but I do know that I am talented as a writer. Irv and I stayed home yesterday and had a Christmas dinner that we got from our food pantry. Tammy and Lexxy gave us the game Wheel of Fortune and we played that yesterday and it was fun. I spent part of the day in bed with my cold but last night I did clean up my house a bit and watched some movies I rented from the library. All the rest of the gifts I got were clothes and the same with Irv. Today Irv and I went and returned one shirt I got that didn't fit and then we went to Wal-Mart and got some paper so he can type on the word proccesor some receipes I wanted. Then we went and got Buttons are bunny some more hay and then I dropped him off at home and came out to my mom's as this is where I rented the movies from and they are due tomorrow.When I got to mom's we went to K-Mart as they had to get some things and I had to exchange Irv's clothes as he quit smoking a year ago and gained a little weight only 10 pds but still. He has agreed that him and I will diet together. Things are starting to look back up again. I did tell him that I have been having trouble with the voice in my head and that I will talk to Weiss and see if we need to increase the meds again. At least I am able to talk to Irv about it and not have to do this all by myself. Well, ladies once again I have written you all a novel and I thank you that you have stayed with me this far. I hope you all got through the holidays ok and I know that depression can make the holidays even harder but we get through it one step at a time. As Bill Murray learned in What About Bob? take babysteps and take a vacation from your problems. Love and Hugs to all !!!! Andrea
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Fri, 12-26-2003 - 11:30pm

(((((((Andrea))))))), I am glad your day went so well.

 

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Sat, 12-27-2003 - 2:07pm

Andrea! What an awesome post! I know there were some really down times for you during the holidays (there were for me too) but overall it sounds like things went really well and thats great!! You really sound like you have turned the corner hun and im very happy for you!


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Registered: 04-09-2003
Sat, 12-27-2003 - 10:23pm
Andrea,

It sounds like a nice Christmas. It's too bad that most families have at least one jerk. In my family, more than half of the people are jerks. My brother's wife is a major jerk. She's really insulting and self-righteous. My sister's husband can be quite a jerk. I like quiet holidays with my dh because holidays with the family were always such a nightmare.

It's great that your family is so sweet and caring (besides your brother-in-law). They clearly appreciate and treasure you. It sounds like you are quite a wonderful family.

My Christmas was pretty nice (and quiet, as we like it). I talked to one of my jerky brothers yesterday, which kind of got me down. He's always so mean about my oldest brother, who is borderline. The other three siblings besides the oldest and myself are not at all compassionate. They are quite arrogant and judgmental.

I have been feeling really sad and been craving chocolate over the last day. I know it's because I'm upset about my brother being a jerk. I've got the deal with it.

I'm glad that you have been taking such good care of yourself. That's the most important thing for us to do.

Take Care,

Love,

Maria